Last day of 2009

today is last day of 2009

what i did in 2009?
1. i graduated from PJCAD in interior architect course within 3 years
2. i broke up my 4 yrs+ relationship
3. i been working in a sucks company name DESIGNEGE that owe me 3 months salary
4. i work at quadrant contracts as my second company of the years
5. i have fun with my lovely friendss
6. i knew many many new friendsss...
7. i see through many many people whose bad and good

what i regret and i nv do?
1. i spend less time with my family
2. i waste too much money
3. i waste to much time in play
4. i did many many wrong things in this year
example: i too trust someone....
make me learn my leasson i wont be stupid anymore....
5. oversea study.................

what i happy in 2009?
1. i get back all my old friendsss....
2. i contact back kelly leong
3. finally i graduated my diploma course
4. i happy that i broke up
5. i happy that i see through the ppl who lie on me...
make me grow up...
6. i happy with my life....
i wont regret my life goes like this....
there is my stage of life...^^


thanks everyone who treat me good and bad....
i love you all....

currently just here...
to be continue...

匿名的好友

杜松混合茉莉的风

回忆里被爱

那股激动

天色好红

温柔好浓

在胸口浮现你的面容

一起活在这城市迷宫

提起你名字

心还跳动

却没重逢

只留下碰却又不敢碰的那种激动

也许我们当时年纪真的太小

从那懵懵懂懂

走进各自天空

该怎麼说让彼此选择

但思念还转动

不能握的手

从此匿名的朋友

其实我的执著

依然执著与你无关泪自行吸收

不能握的手

却比亲人更亲厚

当所有如果都没有如果

只有失去的温柔

最温柔

当又一次美梦落空

回忆裏被爱

那股激动

天色好红

温柔好浓

在胸口浮现你的面容

也许我们当时年纪真的太小

从那懵懵懂懂

走进各自天空那是甚麼

让彼此选择

又不仅是尊重

不能握的手

从此匿名的朋友

其实我的执著

依然执著

与你无关泪自行吸收

不能握的手

却比亲人更亲厚

当所有如果都没有如果

只有失去的温柔

最温柔

不能握的手

从此匿名的朋友

其实我的执著

依然执著

却决心和你不再联络

不能握的手

却比爱人更长久

当所有如果都没有如果

只有失去的拥有

最永久

人生第一次

今天我几厉害一下咯...

我既然自己洗鱼缸咧...

我人生第一次咯...

有够厉害的...

虽然...我的渔缸不大...

可是也是很重的咯...

我根本搬不起...

我用了九牛二虎之力...[哇...好久没用这个字了]

换好的时候真的还有点累...

还很喘...:P

今天真的很累...

希望能好好入眠吧...

today dunno why i feel my world like so grey...

feel emo...

feel sad...

i need a shoulder and arm...

who can borrow me...

i need a warm arm...

suddenly the loneliness pop out from my heart...

suddenly i ask myself...

shud i go into another relationship...

my heart is feel : no way....

but i feel to....

coz will make me wont sad and wont lonely...

soon is christmas...

i hope to be alone...

i hope to be silent night...

but i feel i will cry on eve...

dunno why...

feel so sad....

in my heart now the place still empty...

who will get in...???

still a question....

but i feel someone getting in...

i hope is the right 1...

but i dun1 be sad anymore,,,

could i???

will i???

all is question....

full of question in my heart...

i wish my mr. right is ........

but still ???

hope he is..........^^

happy shopping day!!!!

today we have a happy shopping day!!!

shop!! shop!! shop!!

HAPPY~~

make me cant think much...

and happy buying~

i love the dinner and desert...

make me happy and forget all the unhappy things...

i saw snow :p [but is fake de....at pavilion...so crowded]

hahaha^^

although today weather is sucks....

coz rain...but still can have a nice shopping day...

lol...

finally i brought what i wan...

next week no worry d...:p

what a christmas feel everywhere...

0oppsss.......

next week gonna be christmas~~

all are preparing christmas present everywhere...

headache for christmas presents???

hmmm.......

今天让我想起上一年christmas
你送我的snoopy
超大只的
我超级喜欢
erm...
今年虽然孤单
但是我还是可以过的
加油!!!

今天金句: i am superwomen...!!!!

今天我尽量平伏自己的心情
让自己不去想
让自己开心点
用忙碌盖过我的心情
尽量不看 fb 的post
我知道我会越看越伤心
所以我自我催眠
不去看为妙
[虽然...可能我的christmas 和生日即将面临寂寞...
可是我还是尽量乐观面对吧...]

今天金句: 明天会更好...下一个会更好...
加油!!! 加油!!! 加油!!!

今天我的心痛了一整天...
好难受哦...
没人可以说...
好痛哦...
痛进了我的心...
自欺欺人...
我不痛才假...
可是我告诉所有的人...
我没事的...
feelless....
我希望我能做到...
可是还是痛...
T.T

Psychasthenia

Psychasthenia is a psychological disorder characterized by phobias, obsessions, compulsions, or excessive anxiety. The term is no longer in psychiatric diagnostic use, although it still forms one of the ten clinical subscales of the popular self-report personality inventories.

The subscale 7 describes psychasthenia as akin to obsessive-compulsive disorder, and as characterised by excessive doubts, compulsions, obsessions, and unreasonable fears. The psychasthenic has an inability to resist specific actions or thoughts, regardless of their maladaptive nature. In addition to obsessive-compulsive features, the scale taps abnormal fears, self-criticism, difficulties in concentration, and guilt feelings. The scale assesses long-term (trait) anxiety, although it is somewhat responsive to situational stress as well.

The psychasthenic has insufficient control over their conscious thinking and memory, sometimes wandering aimlessly and/or forgetting what they were doing. Thoughts can be scattered and take significant effort to organize, often resulting in sentences that don't come out as intended, therefore making little sense to others. The constant mental effort and characteristic insomnia induces fatigue, which worsens the condition. Symptoms can possibly be greatly reduced with concentration exercises and therapy, depending on whether the condition is psychological or biological.

Anyone familiar with this case???
Any idea???

^^˙˙˙ʞɹoʍ sı ʎllnɟǝdoɥ˙˙˙ʍou ʇɥƃıɹ ǝɯıʇ ƃuıʌıƃ ɯɐ ı
˙˙˙uoos ǝƃuɐɥɔ ǝq llıʍ llɐ ɥsıʍ ı
˙˙˙ɹǝʇʇǝq ǝq llıʍ ʇı ǝdoɥ ı
~ǝʇɐıɔǝɹddɐ
~ɟo ƃuıʞuıɥʇ

thankyou^^
thankyou for.....^^

6 dec 09 (sun)

我的无聊sunday
没事做
超闷的...
心情超complicated的
听着...
-Olivia Ong - Sometimes when we touch
-梁文音 - 哭過就好了
-G.E.M Tang 鄧紫棋 -Where did you go
-陶喆-暗戀
心情超低落
可是超爱着几首歌
这几首歌陪我度过了不少伤心
感触十分


♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Olivia Ong - Sometimes when we touch

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you


And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you 'til I die
'Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you 'til the fear in me subsides


Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But, through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth


And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you 'til I die
'Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you 'til the fear in me subsides


At times, I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times, I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly


At times, I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times, I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again


And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you 'til I die
'Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you 'til the fear in me subsides

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
梁文音 - 哭過就好了

不喜歡懷疑什麼
並不表示我
沒有感受
看你微妙的變化
慢慢不同
我不是生氣
只是心痛

最討厭被誤會了
但越解釋
越覺得難過
你可以說人會變
但不能說
你會這麼做
是我的錯

哭過就好了
傷都會好的
這樣相信所以深呼吸著
割捨
愛是為了擁抱
為了牽手
不是為了爭吵
為了調頭

哭過就好了
痛都會走的
記憶有限
所以它會淘汰
懷的
失眠聽歌
想念雖然苦澀
還是謝謝你
讓我長大了

越多美好堆疊的過往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲傷
要找勇氣卻不在口袋或
手上
但它一定在我身上某個地方

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

going end 2009

december 2009...
is going end of 2009
what i have done for this year many many
many many regret things i have done for everyone in my life
soon is going christmas 3 more weeks
what can i do for my christmas eve and christmas???
who can accompany me??? [no one^^]
will i have my lonely christmas???
where shud i celebrate???
so many questions in my mind
non stop pop out in my mind...
after christmas is 2010 eve
where shud i go???
lonely???
haiz...
speechless...
[tis shirley is damn bullshit here....damn it]
since start work...
my stress non stop...
i wanna have great trip...but...many reason^^
end of years...
all the employees waiting...
bonus....
annual dinner....
annual trip...
salary increasement ...
haha^^
so many things a employee must wait while end year...
looks busy in the mind....^^
well....for me i just need increasement...
if not bye~ bye~
but i noe is hard for tis company....
so.................well............soon.....will.....................
bye~ bye~

today office feel so cold~
and silent...
coz just left 3 staffs here....
all ................not here....so pityfull us...
and boring working time....
and today is friday!!!!
all in friday mood....so.........
just waiting go home for the whole day long....
haha....cant said that....
cause i got work^^ kaka.....
a moutain of work waiting me complete...

so.............continue my work again...^^

learning my life...

first day sad....
can't accept it...
can't let go....
second day...
lonely...
dunno what to do???!!!!
third day....
miss...
whole brain is him....
wtf@##%$#^
i am doing rite now....
lost....myself...
no direction...

now only know how to learn to survive
without you...
haiz....
life go dark...
life go silent...
finding my brigthen part of life...
i always remind myself....
laugh and happy is th eimportnat part for me...
can i make it???
i hope i can!!!!!
trying th ebest way to survive....
time....^^

28 nov 2009 night

27 nov i tell him i wanna break up.....
he said dun1...
at the end 28 nov night...
he tell me jst break up and cool down...
i reli dunno wat he think....
he just always keep his mind...
did u think wat i am feeling???
am i hurt???

haiz....suan bah...
pass....
tonight he finally bring back his clothes....
when i talk with him...
i was showing my smiling face....
but he give me the react is -.-
haiz....i just wan him be happy....not -.-[sad]

tonight i tell myself...
i will brighten up my life^^
hope u will be happy....
laugh more....^^

today i reli reli very tired d....
feel days nv sleep well....
and i am hurt and cry....
feel lonely so....
but tonight after i talking with my two girl's fren...
i feel more comfortable....
i hope i can have a nice dream and u too....
smile^^

27 nov 08 (0200am)

我提出了分手
我知道我办不到
可是我硬着头皮说了出来
我忍着不哭
可是泪满眼眶
我忍
我的心很痛
很痛
痛得睡不着
我不想双方难过
难受...所以提出了
很对不起...

我知道我办不到的
我知道我会很难受的
我知道的
可是这样下去也不是办法的
唯有...
对不起...


痛...

冷静期

给自己时间
给别人时间

过去了
从新开始
把之前的都擦掉
别再回头过去
珍惜现在

别哭了
勇敢

事实已经是这样了
勇敢走下去

时间
时间
时间

别怕了
勇敢面对

shirley已经不在这世界上了
死了
过了

现在shirleybaby在这
别哭
别怕
勇敢面对
过了
面对现实才是最重要
不哭了

结婚季节

年尾真嘅係一个结婚季节
一直睇到各个"红炸弹" 係身边嘁出咁转
真恐怖...
都係替佢哋开心嘅
年尾新娘真嘅咁好做咩...
haha^^
我都有几摊有出席...
全部三五识七...真白痴
[我係唔鍾意应酬係人...so...都唔办法...就顶硬上啦...不过如果係自己朋友嘅...我终开心...haha...^^]


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唔知点解
我最近好矛盾
唔知自己想要什么
好似迷失自我咁
发生了之前嘅各件事
我就一直耿耿于怀
好过唔去
吞唔落去咁
真嘅好辛苦
唔想挣扎
各日终于痛哭咗一晚
依然...
看唔开...haiz~
人生啊...........
咁又何谓咧???

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昨日听到朋友讲
马来西亚真嘅会落雪
真嘅几怀疑
难道真嘅有冬天
haha^^
想起真嘅几荒谬
可能嘅....唔知几时jek嘛...
等咯......haha^^
期待^^ 呢一日嘅来临...

already november...

now already november...
can see that we already surrounding christmas decorative...
and christmas smell~
i feel that tis year's christmas is come so fast...
but inside my heart...
christmas is kind of silent night...
i like the feel of christmas romantics...
this year christmas have you been think where to go???
where to celebrate???
what to present to ur family, friends and lover???
hmmm...
no idea yet...
i waiting my present >.<
kaka!!!
i waiting surprise...:P
but i know wont happen...
but this few days weather is cold~~~
will malaysia having winter???
will malaysia snow???
haha^^ that's what i hope [in heart]
hee....i feel that now is very cold...
i enjoy the weather...
but the weather make people lazy and easily feel hungry...^^
and many people flu~
soon going to 2010...
in my heart is excited...
coz my birthday soon...:P
but...sad too...
coz i going up so fast and my stress more...
i dun want...
can i???
i hope my end year can do something special to make me remember forever...
can i???
will i???
shall i???


hopefully i can have a wonderful greatly christmas....
[i know is hard to get it...=.=]

Dating Tips: 7 Signs He's Serious About You

In that first month of dating, even the coolest guy can only play it so cool. If he's serious, he'll drop hints.

It's hard to remember the simple things that indicate he is serious about you when you're being courted, especially when his game is intoxicating, and he's saying "all the right things." So keep in mind, seriousness should not be measured by:
- The amount of money he's spending on you
- The grandeur of dates
- The frequency of dates
- The nice things he says

During the fledgling weeks of dating, if he's doing any of the following, there's a chance that he's serious:

#1. He Calls/Texts at the Right Time
It's good when a guy texts/calls any time, any day. And subject matter should range from date ideas to insignificant things like the fact that he found a $10 bill on the sidewalk on the way to work.

#2. He Wants to See You... a Lot
I'll try to see a girl as often as I can when I'm into her. Even though I'm a certified expert in the art of laziness, I overcome my desire to sleep or do nothing in those critical early moments of the relationship. My priorities change from Ramen, Wikipedia, and TV to wine bars, walks, and dinners.

#3. You Pass the Distance Test
It seems this always happens: You meet someone you like, you hang out for a few weeks, and then a holiday or business trip interrupts. So, instead of riding the momentum of the sparks, you must brave that week apart. Will things be the same afterwards? Will you communicate?
If I'm into a girl, time away intensifies my desire to communicate and I anticipate seeing her again -- and I definitely contact her while we are apart. If I'm not into her, she is easily dismissed from my thoughts when we are apart.

#4. You Stack Up Against the Things He Loves to Do
I never thought I'd see the day when guys in our Ravens football watching group would not only show up with a girl, but they'd also miss some of the game because of morning brunch. Yikes! But that's exactly what one of my friends is doing now. I would struggle to sacrifice Ravens time, but when I'm into a girl, she is on the same plane as the things I'm passionate about.

#5. He Finds a Way to Make Time for You
Some people love work, but I would be discouraged if someone worked instead of spending time with me in the first few weeks of a relationship. Even when work needs to be done, I'll find a way to get it done and see the girl. When I'm not into her, I might use the work as an excuse to avoid her.

#6. You See His Other Side
I'm a goofball. People wonder how I'll ever meet someone. They don't understand that the right girl will see the other side of me: serious, behaved, deep, thoughtful, and respectful. When I'm into a girl, I never say anything obnoxious in front of her... at least until I know she likes me. When I'm not into a girl, I'll just act like an idiot with my friends -- almost as if she isn't there.

#7. You Have Down Time Together
If I'm into her, the time we spend just hanging out is the best -- I imagine sun-drenched mornings lying in bed, making breakfast, enjoying "Saved by The Bell" episodes together, and other low-key moments. But if I'm not into a girl, I'll leave her place, or "encourage" her to leave my place instead of hanging out.

Unfortunately, some guys can pull off all of the above without being serious. But usually, a guy who is not serious will not put forth so much effort. Sometimes, in our zeal to find companionship, we forget the simple things, and we convince ourselves that, even though we aren't getting much of someone's time, they are into us. We deserve a relationship with mutual effort that is not simply being used as a means to an end. It's simply about enjoying each other's company.

emo-ing....=.=

today i feel i am so emo-ing...
thinking too much...
mayb i am too free....
many things in my mind....
cant said out...
no one can let me tell...
tats why no one know what i am thinking...
haiz....
dunno why???
what am i doing now...
feel so stupid...
emo....feel....make me suffer...
is killing right now...
pissed off....
Arrggghhhh.............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
feel wanna run out from here...
i need a corner...
T.T

boring saturday

boring....
so.....................................
at the end i accompany my mum go to jusco metro prima kepong...
for what??!!!!


u see????!!!

do you know who is she???
who is she???!!!

omg~

why she post .v. on here???
she is..........????


Bernice.....~~
she show the poster and sign her signature to me...
haha....
special angel....



gosh~sweet smile~



do you know who take all this close photo with Bernice???

i think all the camera man also dun have the good chance to take this close of photo...[sombong~]

haha.........

is the litthe boy at my house...

he run in front bernice and ask her do .v.

haha...and she also follow what he comman...haha...

cant imagine...

bernice just follow what he said...summore present him a signature poster...

kaka....

do you know the little boy how old??

he just 3 years old...

he hold the camera and take photo of bernice while she arrive until end...

寂寞...

每个人都认为
我唔会寂寞
点解我就偏偏嘅係每个夜晚感到寂寞
寂寞到我觉得好可怕
佢放工我番觉
连遇见都是奇迹
虽然同屋不过都係一样嘅
大家嘅空间都好大
都唔知佢记得我冇
好癐啦...
冇力...
冇助...
好傻...
你成日问我:
係唔係挂住你??
你认为呢??

我好惊你答应我嘅事
因为你成日都
开空投支票
我已经唔会相信咗
心淡...
[正如我饿死你都没出现]

伤痛永远难痊愈
你明冇??
因为太深

今晚嘅的夜深
好寂寞
好清静
好冷

好想有个安全地方
靠一靠
可惜佢唔係
................................
................................
................................
T.T

永远解决不了的问题
仍然还在
这只会令大家辛苦
放弃一直在我脑海里旋转
那晚
他坐在我面前
我觉得他好遥远
我感觉不到他
可能他给于别人的太多
很痛苦...
心疼自己的傻
心疼自己的笨
心疼自己的无知
好傻...
好痛...
对不起...

my weekend...T.T

LAST TIME i am a crazy shopaholic....
every week or weekend i sure must go shopping....
BUT...now....
i seldom shop already...
1st....since my company happen so many things....
and make me damn poor now....
i no more money to shop....
2nd....since this month....
he start working every day although weekend....
non stop....
left me alone....at home...
fatt-mou....

but since so many things happen on me...
and so serious shit....
so i wont be that crazy any more...
cause i start know how to appreciate everythings...
i know how poor how to survive...
how sad....how to live...

and i wont let the same things happen on me any more...
i hate it...
i dunno how bad how unlucky for my this whole year....
i dun want thsi things continue any more....
i dun wan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heart damn annoying....

keep thinking of everything
everythings are damn annoying me
and what he give me is
impatient..
dun have time to talk...
no time discuss...
when just talk he go crazy on me...
every people also have theirself annoying things...
is not just you...
what you give and do to me is...
impatient...
i talk soft u shout loud....
what to talk....
nothing to talk....
what in your heart...
i wont know...if you never told me...
what i want you never know....
cause i no time tell you...
feel wanna cry...
no one care
no one know
T.T

damn it...

early morning i already feeling fuck off....
i already talk with my idiot ex-boss...
he show us his ass. hole's face...
and acting fucking polite face...
but can feel that is voice is damn mm song...
when i saw his ass hole's face...
i feel wanna slap his ass's face...
what he mention is what also he dunno....
what also he not sure....
so did u think....
as a boss...
u dunno what happen about the company...
what do u think???
as he mention to me....
he said he dunno when i dismiss...
what the fucking reason he tell me...
fuck off....
feel fustrated....
both boss also in a messy situation...
my feeling already lead me to the end....
it lead me just end of this month....
i feel damn farn now....
i feel i wanna kill their family....
burn their house and company...
bang their cars....
slap their ass hole's face...
curse them until they never reborn...
if not just harm for the world and human....

anyone saw this page....and text
PLEASE DONT GO WORK FOR DESIGNEDGE (M) SDN BHD.
it is harmful company...BEWARE yourself
they owe stuffs money without pay them since june....
if got brain also know....and think....
how the stuffs survive....
without salary....

i am one of the stuffs....
have involve in this case....
it is suffer for me since june...
u cant imagine....
just left few ringgit in ur pocket....
and ur bank is RM 0.00...
what do you think....
if this is you...
and although we already go labour office make report....
and they still working slow....
and what we get is nothing....
is empty....
what do you think????
now one can help you....
no one know the true in this company....
what they cheat us is what they did to us....

keep in touch again....

yesterday i pcik a call from my brother in the office
he tell got 1 friend call me through the house phone number
i was wondering who is that....
and she ask:" 请问月邑在吗?"
i wan wondering again...
who.......???!!!!
no idea....
cause my friends seldom call my chinese name....
and my bro ask her....
who is she???
she said 晓玉...
wah.....晓玉
she is my primary school friend
since form 2 or 3 we already lost contact.....
already almost 6 years we never meet each other...
i wan surprise she find me...

and yesterday i also keep in touch with my secondary school friends
with so call "best friends" on that time....
2 "best friends" + me = 3 person
in my secondary life .....
i have both of them as my playfellow
that time we always crazy together....
we go shopping together
we go travel as well
but since we graduated from secondary
we are seldom meet each other
specially me
coz i study at pj
and they working
bt both of them still keep in touch
just me seldom
coz i need rush my every term and semester
but i sms with them last night
and this friday night we plan to meet up
but for me....mayb they dun have any big change
but myself....i know i am
coz many people said cant recognize me
and said me fat already...hurt** T.T

INTRODUCE
my secondary "best friends"
SHIN YING AND SOO PEI
i known shin ying since form 1
we study in the same class
and that time is a person who very easy angry
every time we went out she sure get angry
and go home alone...funny**
and form 2 we different class
cause we have a big difference in result
but every break time
we still will find each other
start at form 2....
shin ying with soo pei and me argue
cause shin ying always get angry easily and like to scold people
cause she is the only daughther in her family
so she think every people will be patient with her disadvantage
form there soo pei and me never talk to her.....
form 3 just left me and soo pei....
form 4 finally we get in the same class with shin ying
but that time both of us also treat her not that friendly
but she sms us tell us
she already change
please be friend with her
after she sms us few month
finally we get back as friend with shin ying
from there we get together as "best friends" again....
we same class until form 5....
we study together....
play together....
shin ying always come my house....after school
cause we same tuition center
and we go tuition togther....
after form 5....
shin ying go learn p licience with me
but she failed in the first stage "undang"
so at the end i go course by myself...
after that case....
we lost contact already.......................
but 1 year still sms few time....sad**
that time we also have our relationship
and we getting to different stage and career....

and soo pei...
i known her since my primary school friend standard 6
we same class since standard 6
but standard 6 we never talk
cause i am taller so i have to sit at the back row
and she is tiny
so she have to sit in front
and that time i am inspector
so my break time is early then normal student
so we seldom meet although same class
that time i also join many competition like basketball, volleyball, art and etc.
so i am a busy kid on that time.
and the terrible is she stay nearby my house
and i never realize....
when i know she get into same secondary school with me
on that time i only start talk to her
and we go school together since form 1 to form 5
form 3 i different class with her....
but we still friend
after that form 4 we finally get back same class
haha^^
since form 4 we getting bads
we start doing some bad things
like whack classmate
run from school
skip class
skip school
skip tuition
and she get in relationship since form2
at form 5 she already in relationship almost 8 time
can said that is puppy love
but that time i am stupid
i dun dare to get in relationship
1st i scare my parents scold
2nd that time i just wanna study
3nd that time i am busy too....
i always involve in art competition
and i was jealous her so happy with her relationship
so begining of form5 she introduce a guy for me
he is my currently boyfriend...
is very thanks to her.....
after our secondary graduated
we still in touch
is more then me and shin ying
cause she work at the kindergarden beside my house there...
so we still will me every morning for almost 1 year
but after that she change her job to others place
and we lost contact already
but is happy yesterdat she call me and chat for a while


hope this friday night is a happy and fun day for us....
excited to meet you all....
hehe^^

boring weekend again...>.<

damn damn damn boring day....
cause i slept late....
so i nv follow mr. lau go work....
haizzzz....
so left me at home.....
nothing to do....
soooooo................................
blogging....
my weekend goes bored and bored....
nothing special....
nothing to do....
what can i do???!!!!
how to make the weekend more interesting....
currently i just feel working only can fill up my boring time....
i wanna fatt-mou d....
i cant enjoy my weekend anymore....
please help me....
anyone????!!!!

好无奈

好无力

好难过

穷

希望现在是我一生人最穷的一个时候
希望过了这个穷的时段
就是我发光发热的时候
我不想再穷下去了
好难过哦...
我从来没有那么穷过
好辛苦哦...
希望这是我人生最低潮
过了这个低潮
我要再见到高峰
我要往上爬
可是永远记得我这段辛苦
给自己鼓励
永远不会忘记现在的低潮
我不想再辛苦下去了
好想哭哦...
好想有个依靠

可是我不会放弃

希望我的努力和辛苦
能换来永远的幸福和快乐

加油吧...

mooncake, lantern and mid-autumn FESTIVAL???

mooncake, lantern and mid-autumn FESTIVAL???
which correct??
[all correct all same...]


The Moon festival (also called the Mooncake or Mid-Autumn festival) falls on October 3rd in the year 2009. What is the Moon festival? Every year on the fifteenth day of the eighth month of the lunar calendar, when the moon is at its maximum brightness for the entire year, the Chinese celebrate "zhong qiu jie."
Children are told the story of the moon fairy living in a crystal palace, who comes out to dance on the moon's shadowed surface. The legend surrounding the "lady living in the moon" dates back to ancient times, to a day when ten suns appeared at once in the sky. The Emperor ordered a famous archer to shoot down the nine extra suns. Once the task was accomplished, Goddess of Western Heaven rewarded the archer with a pill that would make him immortal. However, his wife found the pill, took it, and was banished to the moon as a result. Legend says that her beauty is greatest on the day of the Moon festival.

THE MOON PRINCESS
The Moon PrincessThe story is set around the Tang Dynasty (circa 618 AD). It is said that the Earth once had 10 Suns circling around it, and each took turns illuminating the Earth. However, one day, all 10 Suns appeared together and naturally, the Earth got too hot.Into the picture comes a tyrannical archer Hou Yi, who succeeds in shooting down nien of the Suns with his bow and arrow.He then steals the elixir of life from the Goddess of Western Heaven but his wife, Chang Er, drinks it in a bid to save the world from her husband. After drinking it, she is seen floating away to the Moon. Hou Yi is unable to shoot down the Moon due to his love for his wife. It is said the Chang Er can be seen at her most beautiful on the night of the brightest harvest moon, which is the 15th day of the eighth lunar month.

THE RABBIT
The RabbitIn this famous legend, three fairies transformed themselves into poor old men and begged for alms from a fox, a monkey and a rabbit. The fox and monkey shared what they had but the rabbit, who had nothing, willingly offered his own flesh. He then proceeded to jump into the fire to roast himself. The old men were so touched, they restored the rabbit and let him live in the Moon Palace where he is now known to as the Jade Rabbit.



The MooncakeThe origin of Mid-Autumn Festival dates back many centuries, in ancient China. Through the passage of time, many colourful tales about the origin have evolved. One popular legend, passed down from grandmothers to children and retold each year, evolves around the overthrow of the Mongol rulers in China.

I remember....when we are small got 1 nursery song.....

name " yue liang yuan ".

did anyone remember...

月亮圆

月亮圆 月亮圆

月亮照在我的家

没有春夏秋冬的家

没有流传千年

月亮圆
月亮圆 月亮圆
月亮照在我的家

没有春夏秋冬的家
没有流传千年

现在的孩子不相信

月亮有小白兔

功课与电脑

使他们不再听

古老的神话

当高楼大厦

遮挡了古老的月亮

就趁这个季节

让你的孩子知道

古老的神话

源自何方

月亮圆 月亮圆
月亮照在我的家

没有春夏秋冬的家没有流传千年

中秋节快乐~

i am so envy my classmates can go oversea study
i hope i can................
but.........
currently....is not the time....
i know time by time....pass
i will getting older....
haiz.....
but i still hope i can get my degree....
but.......currently i cant see any hope ......
from my parents.....
what to do????
i really feel like study oversea man.....
i saw my friends....
have a new life at uk and australia
i am so so so so so so envy.....
i wish i can go with them.....
but someone and something spoil my wish....
T.T..''
i really hope i can get my degree.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who can sponsor me.....
or help me?????????????
[haha....]
no one.........._____________________________lll

lonely weekend

no need to said
why the past weekend i so lonely gua????
mr. lau working lo....
haiz....
no money then work harder lo....haha^^

i boring at home like mad
nothing to do......
open laptop play facebook
play until sien d....
then do my office work....
haiz....
what life is that....???
no fun at all........
going boring until die d......
wait mr. lau come back already 8.30pm

i dun like my last weekend....
make me mad at home....

but mostly weekend....
what you all will do????
anyone can answer me??
any interresting weekend can share with me.....

解闷解烦恼解压力

做人真嘅好矛盾
俗语有话: 人生有几多个十年
人生就一定係有起起跌跌嘅...
没跌过边知痛咧...
只係睇你哋如何解决著...

睇见我身边嘅每个人
承受嘅...担心嘅
我真嘅冇能为力帮到
只会感觉到压力
我都有我自己嘅烦恼
真所谓: 家家有本难念的经

如何让自己係唔开心当中
搵到属于自己嘅欢乐
呢个先係最重要嘅
如果一直印住
只会令你lum埋一边
咁何谓咧?

我经过嘅係唔多
不过亦都唔少
唔好呃阿姐见识少啊...

乜嘢都好啦...
自己开心最重要
人係自私嘅
冇人係大方同伟大嘅
难道佢有金拾会叫埋你咯...
慢慢等啦...

我已经尽量睇透同睇开滴啦...
虽然改变唔到乜嘢...
我喜欢就得啦...哈哈...

哈哈...今日好多废话
好多嘢lum唔通
好辛苦啊...
头快爆啦...

surprises all around me~....
am i lucky or bad luck???
happen many things round and round...
some hard to face
some is surprise secret...
i am like a surprise and secret box
we cant imagine or guess what happen inside
just when the things happen we only know...
[when the boat reach the bridge only we know the future]
dunno bad or good....
someone said you never try never know....
for me.....
some is cant try.....
may be i not dare to try...
may be i scare to try...
can said i am timid....

wah....in this year....
many people get married around me
friends....cousins..................
if i seriously count...
until this end of year...
may be will be 8 wedding i need to attend....
erm...
so many....T.T
all is red boom.... :P

this sat is joyce darling 21st birthday leh....
and tat day also my cousin wedding....
may be both also i will attend...
darling....i will try my best to attend ur birthday par....ok???
no worry...
i am happy also...cause mf mama will attend joyce darling birthday too~~
long time no see her....
cant wait to meet her also....hehe^^
mf ....you must take care ya...
sure your little pretty same as you...
pretty**
hehe^^
this week is full of schedule....

4 days holidays....!!!???

what to do!!!????
erm.....
eyey...............

saturday...19 sept 09...[rain]
wake up on 9am+
help my mum dye hair
and have my brunch at the afternoon
the half day like shit.....
nth to do........
play facebook until night
11pm+
go genting with mr. lau freindsssss..........


sunday...20 sept 09...[windy]
12am+ reach genting
less people
check-in hotel
then sit at starbuck
have my chocolate chips frapucinno
until 2am+
waoh.....................
Lamborghini team reach....
cool man....
all the people there look at them without click eye...
3am+ go back hotel watch stupid tv and sleep
the weather cool like shit....
8am+ woke up
stand beside the window and look out
the people at there like mountain and ants....
so many people at there....
soooooooooooooooooo
i go back sleep again
coz no chance to enter theme park already
although i enter also cant play
no choice....back to sleep
until 11am+
take my bath
and watch cartoon in the hotel
wait them wake up and take bath
already 1pm
go out have our brunch
walk to first world indoor
all the hman like ants
walk also need to push
haiz....
i wondering all the people still can take photo
haiz.....
all the restaurant also full of people
no choice
have to eat fast food again
PIZZA....
after ate the brunch walk around
3pm+ go back to k.l.
after that we go pavillion
actually we have to meet our friends at there
but.....they give us aeroplane..........................................
when we reach pavillion car park
they call and said change location to cheras old town....
after old town we go leisure mall fetch our friends
the first time i go leisure mall
erm....no feelllllllll
then we have our dinner at sri kembangan
after dinner
we go second round at dataran prima, pj [original kayu]
today are very tired
reach home 1am+ i slept already

monday...21 sept 09...[cloudy]
when i woke up already 10am+
mr. lau's mum already cook us breakfast
after breakfast...
his friendsss call again
ask us go PAVILLION....
AGAIN..........................!!!!!
after pavillion we walk to sg. wang
after sg. wang already 6pm+
we need to rush back rawang
coz we have to dinner with mr. lau's family
after dinner 10pm
we go back pj 记得吃 eat desert with mr. lau's friendsss
after desert
we go 1U neway sing k
ntil 4am+ in the morning

tuesday...22 sept 09...[sunny]
5am+ reach home
slept....~
woke up at 12 pm
today is mr. lau's nephew birthday
in the evening we go 1U with his family
at night we go kota damansara yumcha
12am+ go home..........
sleep on 2am+
tired.....................................

today i feel sleepy........Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz~~~~~
my holidaysss..........................

冰冷

今天的空气好冰冷哦...

看着他对我的不耐烦

看着他对我的不理不睬

感觉好寂寞

他已经累了

可是他

仍然坐着那儿

等待她的信息和电话

看了好心疼

可是我不能表露我的心疼

我只能坐在一旁

听我的歌

玩我的电脑

他也没理会我

也没发觉我的存在

好没存在感

好难过

他烦恼她要走了

他烦恼她会不会忘记他

他担心她

他爱护她

这我一切都放在眼里

只是他没发现

这几天的我

回到家

都好没胃口

都少吃了

他没发现

因为我在他世界里

变成了"烦"

这个字熟悉的

这是他常形容我的

低落的心情

感觉好无奈

做什么都好不对劲的

好不舒服哦...

他越是躲避

我越想知道

他们隐藏着什么

可能不是我想象的

只是不想再被骗

被骗的感觉不好受

我不知道他们要怎样???

不想猜测

也无法猜测

让他去吧..........................................

emo feel

quite sometime i abandon my blog
happen many sad things in this few time
feel desperation in my life
bad working life i have been
relationship is ..........

To you:

我能不吃醋吗？

我没她好[难听的]

试问你给他的

我都难过

因为我都得不到

得不到你给于他的好

好难过

埋藏在心里的痛

不能发泄

好伤心

不能告诉任何人

哭

也只能偷哭

告诉也只能告诉自己

安慰也能自我安慰

还是哭了

心里的难过和痛

没人能体会

没人能谅解

你懂吗?

肚子很痛

可是

你在和她

聊得又说有笑

我不敢打扰

只能一个人窝在墙角

哭

你给她的关心

永远那么多

我能不嫉妒吗?

请你想想...