Last day of 2009

today is last day of 2009

what i did in 2009?
1. i graduated from PJCAD in interior architect course within 3 years
2. i broke up my 4 yrs+ relationship
3. i been working in a sucks company name DESIGNEGE that owe me 3 months salary
4. i work at quadrant contracts as my second company of the years
5. i have fun with my lovely friendss
6. i knew many many new friendsss...
7. i see through many many people whose bad and good

what i regret and i nv do?
1. i spend less time with my family
2. i waste too much money
3. i waste to much time in play
4. i did many many wrong things in this year
example: i too trust someone....
make me learn my leasson i wont be stupid anymore....
5. oversea study.................

what i happy in 2009?
1. i get back all my old friendsss....
2. i contact back kelly leong
3. finally i graduated my diploma course
4. i happy that i broke up
5. i happy that i see through the ppl who lie on me...
make me grow up...
6. i happy with my life....
i wont regret my life goes like this....
there is my stage of life...^^


thanks everyone who treat me good and bad....
i love you all....

currently just here...
to be continue...

匿名的好友

杜松混合茉莉的风

回忆里被爱

那股激动

天色好红

温柔好浓

在胸口浮现你的面容

一起活在这城市迷宫

提起你名字

心还跳动

却没重逢

只留下碰却又不敢碰的那种激动

也许我们当时年纪真的太小

从那懵懵懂懂

走进各自天空

该怎麼说让彼此选择

但思念还转动

不能握的手

从此匿名的朋友

其实我的执著

依然执著与你无关泪自行吸收

不能握的手

却比亲人更亲厚

当所有如果都没有如果

只有失去的温柔

最温柔

当又一次美梦落空

回忆裏被爱

那股激动

天色好红

温柔好浓

在胸口浮现你的面容

也许我们当时年纪真的太小

从那懵懵懂懂

走进各自天空那是甚麼

让彼此选择

又不仅是尊重

不能握的手

从此匿名的朋友

其实我的执著

依然执著

与你无关泪自行吸收

不能握的手

却比亲人更亲厚

当所有如果都没有如果

只有失去的温柔

最温柔

不能握的手

从此匿名的朋友

其实我的执著

依然执著

却决心和你不再联络

不能握的手

却比爱人更长久

当所有如果都没有如果

只有失去的拥有

最永久

人生第一次

今天我几厉害一下咯...

我既然自己洗鱼缸咧...

我人生第一次咯...

有够厉害的...

虽然...我的渔缸不大...

可是也是很重的咯...

我根本搬不起...

我用了九牛二虎之力...[哇...好久没用这个字了]

换好的时候真的还有点累...

还很喘...:P

今天真的很累...

希望能好好入眠吧...

today dunno why i feel my world like so grey...

feel emo...

feel sad...

i need a shoulder and arm...

who can borrow me...

i need a warm arm...

suddenly the loneliness pop out from my heart...

suddenly i ask myself...

shud i go into another relationship...

my heart is feel : no way....

but i feel to....

coz will make me wont sad and wont lonely...

soon is christmas...

i hope to be alone...

i hope to be silent night...

but i feel i will cry on eve...

dunno why...

feel so sad....

in my heart now the place still empty...

who will get in...???

still a question....

but i feel someone getting in...

i hope is the right 1...

but i dun1 be sad anymore,,,

could i???

will i???

all is question....

full of question in my heart...

i wish my mr. right is ........

but still ???

hope he is..........^^

happy shopping day!!!!

today we have a happy shopping day!!!

shop!! shop!! shop!!

HAPPY~~

make me cant think much...

and happy buying~

i love the dinner and desert...

make me happy and forget all the unhappy things...

i saw snow :p [but is fake de....at pavilion...so crowded]

hahaha^^

although today weather is sucks....

coz rain...but still can have a nice shopping day...

lol...

finally i brought what i wan...

next week no worry d...:p

what a christmas feel everywhere...

0oppsss.......

next week gonna be christmas~~

all are preparing christmas present everywhere...

headache for christmas presents???

hmmm.......

今天让我想起上一年christmas
你送我的snoopy
超大只的
我超级喜欢
erm...
今年虽然孤单
但是我还是可以过的
加油!!!

今天金句: i am superwomen...!!!!

今天我尽量平伏自己的心情
让自己不去想
让自己开心点
用忙碌盖过我的心情
尽量不看 fb 的post
我知道我会越看越伤心
所以我自我催眠
不去看为妙
[虽然...可能我的christmas 和生日即将面临寂寞...
可是我还是尽量乐观面对吧...]

今天金句: 明天会更好...下一个会更好...
加油!!! 加油!!! 加油!!!

今天我的心痛了一整天...
好难受哦...
没人可以说...
好痛哦...
痛进了我的心...
自欺欺人...
我不痛才假...
可是我告诉所有的人...
我没事的...
feelless....
我希望我能做到...
可是还是痛...
T.T

Psychasthenia

Psychasthenia is a psychological disorder characterized by phobias, obsessions, compulsions, or excessive anxiety. The term is no longer in psychiatric diagnostic use, although it still forms one of the ten clinical subscales of the popular self-report personality inventories.

The subscale 7 describes psychasthenia as akin to obsessive-compulsive disorder, and as characterised by excessive doubts, compulsions, obsessions, and unreasonable fears. The psychasthenic has an inability to resist specific actions or thoughts, regardless of their maladaptive nature. In addition to obsessive-compulsive features, the scale taps abnormal fears, self-criticism, difficulties in concentration, and guilt feelings. The scale assesses long-term (trait) anxiety, although it is somewhat responsive to situational stress as well.

The psychasthenic has insufficient control over their conscious thinking and memory, sometimes wandering aimlessly and/or forgetting what they were doing. Thoughts can be scattered and take significant effort to organize, often resulting in sentences that don't come out as intended, therefore making little sense to others. The constant mental effort and characteristic insomnia induces fatigue, which worsens the condition. Symptoms can possibly be greatly reduced with concentration exercises and therapy, depending on whether the condition is psychological or biological.

Anyone familiar with this case???
Any idea???

^^˙˙˙ʞɹoʍ sı ʎllnɟǝdoɥ˙˙˙ʍou ʇɥƃıɹ ǝɯıʇ ƃuıʌıƃ ɯɐ ı
˙˙˙uoos ǝƃuɐɥɔ ǝq llıʍ llɐ ɥsıʍ ı
˙˙˙ɹǝʇʇǝq ǝq llıʍ ʇı ǝdoɥ ı
~ǝʇɐıɔǝɹddɐ
~ɟo ƃuıʞuıɥʇ

thankyou^^
thankyou for.....^^

6 dec 09 (sun)

我的无聊sunday
没事做
超闷的...
心情超complicated的
听着...
-Olivia Ong - Sometimes when we touch
-梁文音 - 哭過就好了
-G.E.M Tang 鄧紫棋 -Where did you go
-陶喆-暗戀
心情超低落
可是超爱着几首歌
这几首歌陪我度过了不少伤心
感触十分


♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Olivia Ong - Sometimes when we touch

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you


And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you 'til I die
'Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you 'til the fear in me subsides


Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But, through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth


And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you 'til I die
'Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you 'til the fear in me subsides


At times, I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times, I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly


At times, I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times, I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again


And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you 'til I die
'Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you 'til the fear in me subsides

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
梁文音 - 哭過就好了

不喜歡懷疑什麼
並不表示我
沒有感受
看你微妙的變化
慢慢不同
我不是生氣
只是心痛

最討厭被誤會了
但越解釋
越覺得難過
你可以說人會變
但不能說
你會這麼做
是我的錯

哭過就好了
傷都會好的
這樣相信所以深呼吸著
割捨
愛是為了擁抱
為了牽手
不是為了爭吵
為了調頭

哭過就好了
痛都會走的
記憶有限
所以它會淘汰
懷的
失眠聽歌
想念雖然苦澀
還是謝謝你
讓我長大了

越多美好堆疊的過往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲傷
要找勇氣卻不在口袋或
手上
但它一定在我身上某個地方

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

going end 2009

december 2009...
is going end of 2009
what i have done for this year many many
many many regret things i have done for everyone in my life
soon is going christmas 3 more weeks
what can i do for my christmas eve and christmas???
who can accompany me??? [no one^^]
will i have my lonely christmas???
where shud i celebrate???
so many questions in my mind
non stop pop out in my mind...
after christmas is 2010 eve
where shud i go???
lonely???
haiz...
speechless...
[tis shirley is damn bullshit here....damn it]
since start work...
my stress non stop...
i wanna have great trip...but...many reason^^
end of years...
all the employees waiting...
bonus....
annual dinner....
annual trip...
salary increasement ...
haha^^
so many things a employee must wait while end year...
looks busy in the mind....^^
well....for me i just need increasement...
if not bye~ bye~
but i noe is hard for tis company....
so.................well............soon.....will.....................
bye~ bye~

today office feel so cold~
and silent...
coz just left 3 staffs here....
all ................not here....so pityfull us...
and boring working time....
and today is friday!!!!
all in friday mood....so.........
just waiting go home for the whole day long....
haha....cant said that....
cause i got work^^ kaka.....
a moutain of work waiting me complete...

so.............continue my work again...^^

learning my life...

first day sad....
can't accept it...
can't let go....
second day...
lonely...
dunno what to do???!!!!
third day....
miss...
whole brain is him....
wtf@##%$#^
i am doing rite now....
lost....myself...
no direction...

now only know how to learn to survive
without you...
haiz....
life go dark...
life go silent...
finding my brigthen part of life...
i always remind myself....
laugh and happy is th eimportnat part for me...
can i make it???
i hope i can!!!!!
trying th ebest way to survive....
time....^^