从唔呈现在脸上

我嘅唔开心
从唔呈现在我嘅脸上
所以懂我嘅人
未必知道我嘅心情
我就系爱隐藏我嘅心情
所以往往我嘅心情系几咁唔开心
我嘅想哭
都唔会有人知
有时觉得自己好傻
自己呃自己
唯有等到深夜
自己一个人
要睡时
就会想东想西
就在个个时候
哭了....
心情嘅矛盾
令我觉得好烦
即使你学会
即使你了解
即使你想通
此中都已经
在你心目中
留下了烙印
要铲除它
系一件好难嘅事
现在和将来
都会有好大嘅改变
.................................
前日我驾车去做工同返屋企
都在车流下了眼泪
虽然我系哭包
但系我系有原因嘅
眼泪系从心里流露出来嘅
暂时冇也给我寄托
所以心情变化好大
都唔想伤给无辜
唯有自己发自己脾气
呢个就系我
以加我想要点我都唔知
等我恢复心情
可能会好滴


以上所言
我都唔知自己讲紧咩
对唔住大家
浪费时间读我嘅blog

let's me introduce you all 2 cute cars...

let's me introduce you all 2 cute cars for you all
there are the two cute cars i currently love
first when u saw this sign what is this???
[guess]


and u saw the interior of the car
leather cover for seat...
fine and smooth cutting for everythings...
[guess]


digital screen for petrol, time, weather and etc.

unique shape of meter box

look like a lady eye shape

there is the overall car interior

a lcd screen at the middle

"v" shape stylish for cd player and air-condition

this is the car rare view...

what do you think any idea of it?[guess]

there is toyota iQ...

izzit cute???

this car is using this technology controller to on off the car

it is very match this cute car style...

look fine and cute

sure many ladies saw this car will love it

this is the side view of the car

can see the unique shape for exterior

the back wind screen is cool~

it just two door and for four passangers...

let"s see the front view of the car...

what do you all think?

i look so fierce~~~

like the front light of this car...








and the second cute car is

Alfa Romeo Mito!!!!!!!

as who know me...

they will know i like alfa romeo a lot!!!!

kaka^^

this mito is created by many of carbon fiber materials

as you can see...

the sign of the "mito"

also is carbon fiber word

it is so attractive!!!!

this is the interior of mito

leather!!!!

and the leather look so firm and fine compare from iQ

and so sportty...

alfa romeo car...

the rims always the attractive part

coz alfa romeo rims

always is the most unique then others car

the carbon fiber car top also very very attractive

for those carbon fiber lovers...

coz carbon fiber is very light

and when apply to car

the whole car will look more sportty and cool~~

and as i said this car is applied many carbon fiber

so the side mirror also using carbon fiber...

so ask we know carbon fiber is not cheap at all...

for alfa romeo mito the price also wont go low

the pricing for this car is RM300K+

for currently only...

the rare view is so cool!!!

the back light is round and sportty

here....it is alfa romeo mito!!!!!

so sport and the front like is so slaughter...

love it very much!!!

hope can get it...

but is too expensive lol...

just back from golf practicing...

ahh....
today so tired go practice with my bf and his fd at sri damansara...
today is a lot of people practice there...
usually we go tropicana...
there will not so many people...
and today already late...
coz we go there after my work...
no choice...we have to go nearby lol...
but today weather is good...
got cold wind...and wont so hot...
but still sweat...
and play until my hand and leg also shake...
today i hit almost 100 balls...:p
now i feel my hand shaking...
but now after i take bath...
i need continue some of my work...
i need to amend some drawing that i take back from office...
oh my gosh!!!!i amend with shaky hand:)
hate to change so many time
i hate empress hotel!!!!!
i hate you!!!!!

although today i so tired....
but i am happy playing golf with them...
and i feel my skill more weird already....
coz few month never touch golf....
ish!!!shame-nya~~~
then when start playing also get scold by my bf....
"why your skill more poor already...teach you already still the same"
my heart thinking "i so long never play already...now just touch then get scold already"
so play with my black face....to facing my bf....
hengg!!!!!
u all pro mah!
i juz level 1...
cheh~!!!!
[please tomorrow my arm dun pain]

同我班同事打波波

昨日放工
我同我班同事去segambut
打波波...
yea~
流唑一身汗...
做工都没gum辛苦
haha...
不过都唔错啦...
运动下都唔错...
打唑波...
返到屋企真的feel到累
即使我好累
我都系睇唑
我细佬download的
“美女厨房”
先睡...haha...
真犯贱
不过昨日返到屋企
累到睡都睡唔着
吃都吃唔落
唯有睇戏咯...

yesterday...

yesterday is quite a tired day for me...
because sunday i was accompany my parents go 1 day trip at ipoh
that's what i promise them when mother's day....
so i shuould do what i promise them although i feel boring
cause going out with those uncles and aunties...
and laugh in the bus....
but i have a delicious journey with them
cause we ate big prawn for our lunch
and dinner is 佛跳墙
i dunno how to translate in english that food
then after dinner already 10 something at night
the place we dinner at tg. malim
so we need to go back kuala lumpur still a long journey back
so after we reach home is very late at the night
cause we need to drop back all the aunties and uncles at different places
and they walk so slow
you know those old man will slow motion a bit lol
so no choice....
hiaz...
then yesterday i go working with a tired mood...
and feel blur also...
but i'm not sleepy at all...
haha...
after reach home
i go playground at the back of my house
to find the little boy at my house
he play football at there
so i go pick him up with my mum
then i saw a big rainbow on the sky with rainbow shadow
looks like two rainbow on the sky
so nice...^^
but i never bring photo out
so never take photo
the rainbow just on the sky 2-3 min
then appear....
but the beautiful of the rainbow still in my mind until now....
love it^^

我选择佐唔lum同冷静对待

我选择佐唔lum同冷静对待
真的唔lum噜...
lum通佐...
只要他唔系欺骗我
唔系做坏事...
我真的没问题的
lum清楚啦...
唔再lum啦...
由他啦...
每个人都有自己的生活
真的管唔到gum多的
唯有过返自己的生活啦
自己开心
皮肤都漂亮[自欺欺人的我]
心情就更好咯...[又自欺欺人]
唯有gak gak 骗骗自己啦...
适当的自我安慰
系好geh...
爱自己
多过人地爱你
好过没人爱
唯有爱自己多滴咯...
系唔系？

just happen...

just now go lunch at opposite of my office
it is a hawker center
marcus also come over join us
yesterday he ask us go eat fish head noodles nearby his house
but he never attended
cause he suddenly need to do some urgent things for his dad
then he just come over the fish head noodles stall take away the noodles
and said hi to us only
but today he was attended our lunch
haha...
we have a simple lunch together with my collegues
and some coversation
is happy to see you marcus...
cause we already few weeks never meet
haha...
if next time you just pass by jalan ipoh just call me
we can have lunch together again...

and after lunch marcus tell me
it was a first case of H1N1 swine flu in MALAYSIA
and the patient now is staying at sg. buloh hospital
that very near to me
that patient just come back from us yesterday
and already approved that he really has the H1N1 swine flue
at first it is come with fever, sore throat and body pain...
[omg!!! is same with me...i just see doctor last few days...
because i was fever, sore throat, caughing and headache...
but now is geting better...]
it dangerous now!!!!
we already have the first case...
sure all the news and newspaper will post
all the hits and latest news of it soon...
we should preparedness to all the sick...
it is serious shit dangerous right now...
please take care yourself...
until now i only can feel the swine flu now...
before this happen
i really never feel any dangerous and preparedness for it
now i really can feel it...

feel want to play golf...

today feel like playing golf lol...
long time never play already...
hand start itchy...
need to find some time go play play already...
cant wait to play...
i want play golf!!!!
i wan hit away all the annoying things in my mind....
who wan join me play golf???
just training only...

sick again...

yesterday i take mc....
coz sick again...
tuesday night i go see doctor...
finally he come find me...
coz i really sick and headache
just suddenly my headache go serious
like going boom!!!!
then no choice i should go clinic
wtf* the clinic
usually i go the clinic is guy doctor...
that day doctor not there...
so there is a lady doctor or what...
i also not sure...
then every people enter the room
just come out after 30 second to 1 min...
so fast...
dont know what shit she rushing
and when my turn
still the same
i just sit down
she just ask what sick am i
then i just said lo...
then she just simply do some check
then write some word
after that ask me out d...
omg~so fast lo....
after the check up...
i only realize...
why i go see doctor...
i need to tell her what sick am i
not she tell me meh?
i also @.@[blur]
coz that time no mood to fight back coz headache
conclusion...
i hate the lady doctor
not hate the clinic...
coz usually i sick i will go there...
the service is good...
but that day all are bad....henggg....
yesterday after i take the medicine
sleep the whole day long...
so tired and sleepy....
today is feel better...

headache....

dunno what shit happen...
my headache still cant be cured
i already eat medicine
still the same...
how???
my head very very pain ah...
when under the sun more pain...
and will feel faint...
i not fever...just pain...
but today my throat swollen...
hard 2 swallow although just water...
but i still eat a lot...
and cough non stop...
coz if i not cough my throat not feeling well
i already drink plenty of water...
still the same...
what happen????
am i sick???
i also dunno...
feel want to see doctor d...
coz my throat really swollen
and my head already want to split half...
but for now my face still wont look like sick...
coz i can sufferance quite a long time...
like my headache already 1 week more...
i still sit here i never go see doctor...
but now really feel faint already...
only plan to go...
but dont know when only i will go...
haha^^

cant sleep well...T.T

already few days i cant sleep well...
now feel very tired....
but still not sleepy
yesterday night i really never sleep
i just watch at my clock for the whole lonely night
may be i miss someone...
but i cant stop my tears drop for the whole night
something in my heart is annoying me
that i hard to tell out
that i dont know how to tell?
that i dont know can tell who?
he wont understanding me
what i thinking right now
yesterday he tell me
guy must take work as important
but last time he wont tell me that
i dont know he tell me this is good or bad
i dont know now am i important for him anymore?
many things i am thinking....and caring...
but is hard to tell out...
so every night just sleep with tears


last time i really love weekend
but now weekend for me is just same
coz he wont accompany me
and weekend just like weekdays
so no difference...
and my life going to have a big change
i know it is hard
coz i already spent my every weekends with him 4 years
now need me to change is hard
coz i need to back to my old life
now for me in relationship and single realy no difference any more
coz i really hard to meet him
and less chance to meet him
last time 1 week once
now.........................
i dont know
izit this still in realtionship?
i feel i am selfish...
i feel i am bad...
so sorry...
may be i'm thinking too much...
may be you are right...
may be i should learn independent...
did you feel i am sticky to him?


yesterday i mother's day
from last few years
i will celebrate my mama days with him and my family
but yesterday no...
just me and my family...
feel different...
and change....


promise is wont be true
but i am trust


i already sick for 1 week
feel like not going better
but he promise will bring me medicine
but for the 1 week until now
i still havent receive and medicine from him
and my head still pain like shit

as one of my best friends[marcus] said
i should tell him
what i am feeling...
but i already try to tell him
but he never take it serious
and never care of it...
so what to d?
that is his attitude...
he wont care...


he said he dissappionted on me
then what should i tell him....?
i also dissappionted him???
or what should i said...
i am speechless...


i need to act happy
i need to act nothing happen
i need to act i am ok...

冷淡T.T

我今天用了冷淡来面对他
昨晚哭了整晚
今早眼睛真肿
已经不打算出了
他打来
叫我出
说今天陪我
可是。。。
他并没有
他叫我在midvalley 等他
陪他妈
他去做工
那叫陪我吗
在我去和回罢了
那叫陪吗
算了。。。
现在还是哭了。。。
我要哭到几时呢？
心好痛
为什么？？？
明天还是孤单一个人
以后会孤独一个人吗？
很伤心
很难过
他不会懂的
他只会说我发脾气
就随便他说吧
随便他怎样想吧



T.T

T.T

T.T
cry again because of you...
just now he call me
said have a bad news for me
i already scare
he tell me now i sunday need to work already
start from this sunday
for us we just have sunday to meet up...
so if he start work at sunday
that's mean we no time to meet already
i know the salary is high
so you want to work
fine...i never tell him i dont like
i just agree and accept what he said when he call me
he know i dont like
but i cry is because from just now
i know....
money is important then me
work is improtant then me...
so for me fine...
you just do what u like
leave me alone...
i'm ok...
if cant we just break up bah...
i'm ok...
thanks for everythings...
i really dissappionted on you...
i really sad on it...
i appreciate you...
hope you too...

@.@'''

this few day feel so sick...
i already headache almost whole week already...
when i caugh or sneeze my head like tight and pain...
very very pain :T.T:...
I work in a winter office always make me sick...
from last time intern i work at this office also the same
until now full time also keep on make me sick...
now headache until feel faint...
when i can have a healthy no sick life...
sick make my mood bad...
and feel so tired...
i miss my college time
although i need to travel so far...
1 week few days...
but working every morning i need wake up so so so early
7.15am in the morning
every morning no breakfast...
8.20am i need drive to work
jam at the jalan kuching...
lunch no time...
6.00pm go home...
but mostly late...
go home in the traffic jam...
hungry when driving go home...
saturday also need to work...
my weekend only sunday...
less holidays...
the life is full of interior...
i like it...
but i no time rest at all...
when go home also late...
dinner also cold...not warm at all
make me appititeless
watch tv or online a while
then go sleep...
my currently life...
make me feel like study again...
i long time never sing k with all my lovely friends already
i like the moment we sing k
we can dance and shout in the k room
we can crazy
but now...
when we can crazy together???
miss all my friends...

Leica M8

i love this camera a lot...
last week...i walk to the book stall...
and open some photograph magazine
i saw THIS camera...
gosh~is gorgeous...awsome...
that is what i finding...
i love the modern classic style...
i love the color...
but i know i not really proffesionla on taking nice photo...
but i hope i can have it
and i promise i will learn photography
because of it...
i really really love it...


the modern classic style remind me of my grandpa
cause my grandpa last three years pass my mum an old classic camera
it is almost same style and just this is digital...
my grandpa hope us learn photography...
because of we very busy...
so no time to learn and let the old classic camera stay at cabinet
for almost 3 years...
but for my first view of this camera...
it is remind me to think of my grandpa and
try to have sometime to learn photography
although i really no idea on camera...

but currently i still checking the price of this camera...

i know it sure expensive...

if anyone know about this camera or any idea for me

this camera and photography dummy

please inform me or left some word on my gossip box...

thanks a lot...

cause i need for information for me[dummy]...

friends....???

last week my secondary school friends call me up...
ask me go yamcha with them
they already trying to call me out since few months ago
cause i rushing my final so i never go out with them
but when last week she [pei] sms me
ask me go yamcha
but in my mind just pop out a things that i wont forgot in my whole life
that is...the things happen on.......
end of my form 5 life...
i go shopping wif [pei]...
coz we are very very best friend
we knew each other since primary standard 6
until now....
so i was very very trust her
but that shooping make me broke my heart
coz that day i bring rm200+ go shopping...
at first i not planing to buy anythings
and i bring a big bag that day
[pei] saw me bring a big bag and looks heavy
so she help me to carry
so i trust her i let her carry
but when half way shopping i saw a clothe that i very like
so i plan to buy it
when i take that clothe to casher and take my wallet out
i saw my money is gone
that moment i tot i drop my money some where else
so i ask her to borrow me 1st
that clothe i still very very remember is almost rm200
so i borrow rm200 from her
after pay we walk back the way we walk before and find my money
and we sit down in a cafe to try 2 rewind my mind to think back
where i put my money
at last i still go home without i found my money
when go home another friend call me [ying]
[ying] that time also accompany us when shopping...
[ying] said actually i guess i know where is your money
so i ask her
why you know??
she said i also try before lost my money when go out with [pei]
so that time i only know what happen...
that means she said is [pei] take my money
on that time i very very dissappionted with this friend
and after that i also seldom talk with her
but i still take her as my best friend
i know i am very very stupid...
am i still can treat her as friend???
am i still need to trust her???
who can answer me???
that the reason she call me so many time
i still cant take dissicion to go out with her yet...
i need some one help me answer my question...
hope someone answer me in my gossip chat box soon...
thanks....