what am i expecting???

now is a nice windy weather here...
just done my clean up for my bedroom...
i try to make myself busy adn not to think too much...
but this busy just can help me don't think too much but still think when i busy...wtf*
then now can sit down take a rest think more...
i don't know i'm expecting now????
yesterday my phone got problems...
so i never answer any phone...
so feel sorry to everyone...
and i just wants to cold down myself...
what i wants????
can anyone tell me???
but no one know me...
cause i never said out clearly to everyone...
actually i trying to said out...
but i feeling no one will listen on what i am talking...
and i scare ppl said me "farn"
so.....
but is ok...