early morning of the sunday
feeling damn emo
just wake up then get scold by dad
iiissshhh...................
is noy my fault also...but have to get scold
wat the #@$%^%&^%
so angry....
sunday at home...
i have to continue my office work
holidays like no holidays
sien....work work work....non stop
feeling to run out from here....
but still got work waiting me to complete it
and that fello i long time no see him
he also never give me a call
haiz.....
what we want?
what we need?
what are we??
haiz....nonsence question again....sienzzz
haiz....suen la...continue back my work...
byesss..................boring T.T

同自己讲:

只要开心唛都得

鍾意咩就买咩

鍾意去边就去边

鍾意癫就癫

鍾意废就废

gum埋几开心

嘻嘻嘻...

只要我开心

就得了

懒得理其他人

我行我素

yea~~

peace^^

many people ask me be patient
ask me give time
erm....
izit this is the correct way
but.....
currently nothing hurting me
if he left there also nothing
take it away also nothing
cause there is nothing for me
but what i care
i damn care
i scare i hurting people heart
i scare i do wrong decision
i scare i am the bad person
haiz......wtf
all nonsense coming out in my mind
i cant really tell everyone my feeling
so deep feel of sadness
sad of..............what???
no reason sad???
haiz....
why i drop my tears last night???
so stupid....
but just drop 1 tears...
for no reason
just feel it deep
am i suffering myself
many people tell :
" yes...you are..."
but i really confusing my own
mess up my mind
think of many nonsenses
feel so crazy...=.=
hard to tell out my feeling now....
complicated!!!!
killing me...
T.T"

思考、

どのようにオープンを知っているしないでください

彼に伝えるか

しかし、それは難しい開放

超矛盾...どのようにすればよいですか？

this few day my mood is such a up and down
sometime emo...
sometime damn down....
sometime happy...[but less]
feel like i am crazy...
feel crazy sometime...
what i am doing???
what i am waiting???
looks crazy here....
arrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
need help d....
need to eat medicine d....
so damn fucking #@$#%$%&%........
HELP!!!!

today i saw 1 paragraph....
i feel so deep on it....
so i copy paste post here...

爱一个人，要了解，也要开解； 要道歉，也要道谢； 要认错，也要改错； 要体贴，也要体谅；是接受，而不是忍受； 是宽容，而不是纵容； 是支持，而不是支配； 是慰问，而不是质问； 是倾诉，而不是控诉； 是难忘，而不是遗忘；是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代； 是为对方默默祈求，而不是向对方诸多要求； 可以浪漫，但不要浪费； 可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手

damn emo~~

this few day i damn emo
damn damn damn emo lol
haiz....
what i wan???
what shit make me so emo???
lost myself
crazy women!!!!
so damn emo ah....
feel to sing k.....
sing out my sad
cry T.T
haiz.........fuck off myself
doing nonsense all the days....
i start hating myself
so stupid...

a lil bit disappionted...

i feel a lil bit disappionted when i receive ur msg....

haiz....

[ i shud happy i got the feel.... ]

i cant do anything....

what i can do is ....

make myself happy lo...

what to do...???

sad...disappionted

this is our life...

ok....have to accept it

just take it easy

T.T

complicated

i start my complicated life
i dunno what am i doing???
what am i waiting???
so tuck here...
is e=really confusing me...
make me headache...
somebody tell me i should do what i wan
and make myself happy...
but sometime is not tat easy to make that...
make question in my mind...
mess up my life with those bullshit
i hate bullshit
give me time also like not enough for me
i make myself scare
i make myself screw up
all nonsense
i hate it....!!!!
i wan change my life...
but know is hard...
but what to do...
.................................
.................................
.................................

2010年1月17日日曜日

2010年1月17日日曜日晴れ

私の誕生日来る

最後の2日間

しかし、私は彼に何の措置も表示されません。

彼は、バーには忘れられないだろう

その後、私は非常に悲しいことだが

本当に私にはそのようにしなければならない

スーパーの恐れ

彼は私の気持ちを与えた

ムッとは

人々は、最初甘いと言う

しかし、私は感情の好きではない

彼の最後に私を愛し

貸倒本当だった

今天超级闷加得空

少见吧...

哈哈哈....

我也觉得

就当休息咯

昨晚玩得那么夜了

今天也应该休息的

虽然满闷的

懂我的人

都会说一句

“ 你一天在家都会死的喔...”

没错....真的没错

哈哈哈哈哈

现在都不知道能做什么

超级闷

唯有 等

等什么

只有那个人懂

倒数两天

习惯就好

你的手机又收不到

我像疯子在街上绕

努力跑 你的温度

雨淋过几条街都散不掉

你面无表情的嘴角

像在嘲笑我的胡闹

回头看 突然明了

爱过了使用期效 你就想逃

我想维持礼貌 忘记骄傲

继续做你唯一的城堡

习惯就好 习惯就好

是我选择看不到分手预兆

没有一丝睡意的困扰 无法治疗

习惯就好 习惯就好我承认

我的伪装是真的不够好

请给我 多一秒

你的手机又收不到

我像疯子在街上绕

努力跑 你的温度

雨淋过几条街都散不掉

你面无表情的嘴角

像在嘲笑我的胡闹

回头看 突然明了

爱过了使用期效 你就想逃

我想维持礼貌 忘记骄傲

继续做你唯一的城堡

习惯就好 习惯就好

是我选择看不到分手预兆

没有一丝睡意的困扰 无法治疗

习惯就好 习惯就好

我承认我的伪装是真的不够好

请给我 多一秒

习惯就好 习惯就好

一个人在雨里继续的奔跑

却发现再也听不到 自己的心跳

习惯就好 习惯就好

我承认我的伪装是真的不够好

请给我 多一秒 一秒

希望.....美好

希望换来的是美好的

开始得平淡

未来是美好永久

恐慌的现在

美满的未来

给自己期待也给于别人希望

希望换来永久

真的希望会是好的

怕的感觉

真的还逗留在这

怎么忘记呢

要遗忘一个恐慌真得那么难吗

谁能教教我

我不想我的恐慌破坏我的美好未来

真的对不起

我真的很难过我自己这关

真的很对不起你

也不想伤害别人

而维护自己

可是我能怎么办呢

唯有..............

让我开心的过每一天吧

我能做到的

请你放心

我一定能

我也一定能达到你的要求

你看吧

我一定能!!!!

我介意你的嫌弃

我讨厌我的心态

我会尽量配合你

也不会勉强自己

告诉你我很在乎

希望你放在心里

你的每一句话

我会为你而做

你的一举一动

我想把它留在记忆里

我希望我能抹掉过去

给你更美好的回忆

我真的能做到吗

唯有靠自己了

我真的需要时间

对不起

我真的辫自私了

我真的变了

在一杀那间

我变了

变得一个很自私

很自卑的女子

希望你能接受

.......................

美好在等着我们迈进一步

加油!!!!

too fast....

many people tell me too fast...
actually i also know...
i also feel that...
in my mind now is.......
will it start fast end fast....
i reli scare...
[ wth....why i think in this way...??? fuck...]
mess up my mind...
haiz....
need time...i tell myself
i scare i too stick....
so i will try 2 away myself from there...
although i miss...
but i have to do this....
if not will get a negative effect
so.....................
i will "sim"................................far far
but i also will try my best to do it best...
we wait and see la...ok??
sometime i really feel myself is such a changeable girl...
change so fast....am i????
i was wondering now....
my mind full of...........
haiz....
shit me.......!!!!!
what am i wanna do now???
fuck off myself....
terrible shir.....
sometime really hate myself....
like to mess up my own mind....
i also dunno what i need sometime.........T.T
soon u will know how my attitude de la....:p
terrible attitude....!!!!!!
hate!!!!

torturing me!!!!

wat the hell of my back...
since yesterday my back damn pain until today...
really torturing me...
make me feel to cry T.T....
damn pain....
i wanna bend my body also damn pain ah....
argh............!!!!
very very very very very very very very very
PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!

i start confusing my mind...
dunno why....
all the shit in my mind....
i scare everything...
i am phobia...
or any shit make me do this....
argh!!!!!
i going crazy....
i need a secure???!!! [ i also not sure ]
haiz...wtf of my brain...
non stop turning....
i cant control my stupid brain...
argh............................................
help me!!!!
i wan you help me...
can u???
i need hugss...
i like the warm hugsss...
make me so safe and secure....
i scare everything i did to you...
haiz....wat the shit i writting here...
so fuck...argh.................................
HELP ME!!!!

10 jan 09....yesterday

10 jan...
i feel a new tenants is stay in....
my new life...
new way...
i hope tis tenants...
is a good tenants...
love....

@!#$%^&*

yourmotherfuckerbullshitasshole
pls dun tell me anymore your bullshits things
fuck off away from my path
your nonsence such annoying my life
go back your fuckerbitchasshole there la...!!!!!

make me so angry
those fucker really bullshitsss!!!!

take it easy

take it easy

一切顺其自然

船到桥头自然直

一切将顺利带过

可以的...

加油....

我可以的

最近的心情

有点低落

感觉很矛盾

很多东西烦

原来单身

也会那么矛盾的

很希望随缘

一切放慢

一切缓和

一切缓慢

那不是很好吗

一切让我怕

恐惧

也让我彷徨