T.T sorry everyone i am bad in manage
all is my fault
i think i should disappear from now on...
.......................................................................
sorry...

the face when i am over stress...

headache + faint

shit ever....load of jobs waiting me

tones of problems waiting me to solve

wth the bad news is from now on i dun have any of day...

until march...wtf @$!%$&

Happy valentine's day to everyone...

heart everyone so much...

tomorrow gonna be another fucking busy day...

ahhhhhhhh...i hate it...!!!

anyone come rescue me from the prison...

furk...!!!

tomorrow goin to be valentine's day...
everyone any plan??
prepare anything......
wahahahaha...i am not
i feel i gonna be at home play my own finger this year
sound lonely but feel great!!
sound like so dew...

ytd meet up with a friend that just broke up
but beside him
is another lady
what you think??
i think u have a same tot like me....
is his new gf...[it is....]
he changed a lot after the previous case
he learn to be protect and learn to be play
but he finding his true love
[do you feel i helping him...by the other side...i feel i am too...]
but ytd i saw a great scene i never see him do before
he holding the girl tightly and hug the girl tenderly
i feel he really fall in this
previous i really din even see he do that way
he previously is damn fucking passive person
but ytd he is different
looks great...hope he really take it serious this time

by the way...i know his ex which is just broke up....
she is in unusual mood
and keep sturborn in her own mind and world
cant even listen my words in...
she is pity shit also...
coz she believe him and she dont even think he will do this way
i told her few time already...
but she think i am wrong and she believe her own tot...
ok....if so...i cant do anything so...
wish her luck then....

i dont think in a relationship there will be whose wrong and bad...
just the both way comes....take it
believe is not wrong...
but sturborn believe is serious shit wrong
will get more hurt at the end
i trust that...!!!

女人的放肆
男人的仲容
是現代化的文化
女人利用手段得到
男人利用金錢得到
是現代化的規律
女人的聆聽
男人的心事
是現代化的形式
調整了一些多餘的
變成了一些不同的

i lost my way of step
i lost myself
please hold me tight!!
i am scare...
where am i right now?!
i cant see anything in front of me...
i cant see you...
i cant hold you...
i cant feel you...
i cant smell you right in this moment...
i am scare...!!!
i am lost...!!!
bring me back..!!!
bring me back my way...
bring me back my path...
i am out of the path...very scare...
please hold me tight...
hug me tight...
.............................
.............................
never ever left me behind in the dark....T.T
i scare the empty box of dark...
where am i...!!!
T.T

i just know that i like to be alone....:)
alone is better than nothing....
i like it so much....
let me alone please~~!!!
silent night is best....
i love it!!!

since the 1st day of work...i already damn damn damn damn busy until today....everyday suppose i start work at 11am...but 9am sure some one or contractor call me.....ask me go site work...why me??!! i hate it so much......
everyday no time breakfats no time lunch...everyday in bad mood and angry every morning...rush every morning to site or office....always me....
today i am damn not feeling well....
i am tummy pain and headache....
but i still have to work...someone at home relaxing said he is sick...but i still in office alone work work work....
damn unbalance and angry...!!!!

i feel like crying in office now....T.T
damn angry and sad.....work die me is best ever...........!!!!

i am i ahev to work tomorrow?? i dont think tomorrow i am off day too...

2011 chinese new year

this year chinese new year
i can use two words to describe it
"扑街"
the best ever...
nin 28 give mum money for cny
[got to.....what to do~~~]
nin 29 i spend rm160 for cash wash and polish....damn it!!!
[polish away all the scratches....and dirt...:(]
nin 30 give some money to grandparents......
[respect oldies maaa....]
then nin chor 2 spend rm 200+ for my diana f+ flash....dewness!!!
[mayb shud not so chong dong...]
nin chor 5 spend rm 200+ for car tyre coz tyre puncture....nia seng!!!
[hak zai douuuu....max!!!]
gone gone gone.....
this month i got to eat shit d....
need pay insurance and car loan....dewnesss ever!!!
why why....see see calender...
just 8 feb jek.....still 20 days to go.....for this month
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................................
kill me bah la....dun wait la.....
i spend all the money d....why why why!!!
why cny so damn shit for me~~~~
i hate uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu....!!!

do you feel some diff in this year chinese new year??
this few night i sitting at outside with some friends...
i keep sneeze...not sick...but is cold~~
the weather is start cold...
do you realize last time chinese new year
we always complaint why so fucking hot??
we need prepare singlet and shorts for chinese new year...
but this year i feel there's the different from previous year...
i feel cooling and windy...
although morning it always rain and cold...
make peaple sleepy and moody feel...
but i keep make in mind: when malaysia will snow huh??
kind of ridiculous right??
and weird!!! why malaysia snow??
and why we have 4 season huh??
can imagine...i wear triple clothes in malaysia...
:) although i have a little excited on this...wahahaha...stupid^^

this few days really is not a diet days
tuesday annual dinner with developer at jaya palace pj
wednesday office annual dinner
yesterday, thursday dad birthday
we had a dinner a bubba gump shrimp
die....
although yesterday i had a gym crazily in the morning
but sound waste my time and gym
tonight mayb shud jog...!!!
today my whole body so fucking pain...
yesterday i did some crazy things non stop at gym
1st short jog
2nd leg push
3rd dumbell weight
4th sit up
5th push up
6th waist up

crazyyyyyyy.............
in an hour i did this non stop and so tired...
after gym my hand and leg shake
that's why today so pain~~~~

i ♥ lomography

i love my diana f+

it is so lovely camera...

thanks ian and alex for the gift

i damn ryke it....

capture capture capture!!!!

cute ma...??

today come work all laugh my new hair style...

so bak chih...:(

but my new hair style make me looks so young....lol

hehehee^^

new year new hair style...

nowdays change ke ai look..:)

23th birthday...^^


thanks for all the present^^
lomography diana F+ and baby g....
i damn ryke^^
thanks a lot...!!!

thanks for all the present and wishes^^

thanks a lot...

my wish of the year

this year is the year that i need earn more and more

to hit my 25 years old target (secret)

another special wish is

i hope that i can get my white horse prince

that someone can be....

and

i really wish i can spend more time for my family

since i start this job

i really less time with my family

cause i need to work on weekend

and when i go home everyday already so late

they already going to sleep

not even can talk 1 sentence

haizz....

this year i just have this simple wish...

i wish someone can take care me more...although

any plan for cny??
why k.l. people so boring....
cny is like world end....
nothing to do....no place to go...
stay at home... :(
anyone can give me some suggestion whr to go???

All must...!!!

* must sleep early
* must rest more
* must eat less
* must slim down
* must always go gym
* must eat healthy
* must drink more water
* must less smoke
* must spend less money
* must less night life
* must keep my face less pimples

is time to release stress...!!!!

yesterday i did a crazy ass things
i sign up a gym plan with student price
sound weird right??
no choice...i am not lie on it
is because i have a student face
opppsss....hahahhaa...nonsence
but i reli get a student price for a gym...
hope i can go oftenly
without my lazy worm ask me sleep
and rest at home...
coz i knoe i am fucking fat right now
i have to work out myself
with more prefect body
and healthy body....
wish me luck and kick away my lazy worm thanksss :)

我的不開心
已經用上頭來了
怎麼辦??
快火燒了
可是我不能告訴
別人我的不開心
只好自我安慰
可是昨晚我安慰了自己整晚
都沒有用
也睡不著
是不是很煩呢??
我覺得超煩的
也解決不了
很想快快讓我恢復開心和清醒
:(

this year chinese new year what you had prepare??
are you concern on that celebration??
for me not really
i am like lost something in this year
the whole house also silent
cause sis at national service
bro stay at hostel 2 weeks come back once
i see him when he was sleeping at night :(
chinese new year off also seen like less
wondering is that bones available this year...
properly i didn't put hope on that also
i know it wont happen
but yesterday boss said 15th jan will pass us the next month salary advance
that's mean next week
erm...looks great...
but may be not
cause i will finish it damn freaking fast....
i know that's me..............
:(

有時候總會覺得保持一種感覺

還真得很不錯

得到大家的同意又如何

感覺現在真的很好

空間變大

範圍變大

得到更多

有時真的很開心

得到不同感

體諒範圍變大

依然擁有

還不錯哦

:)

女人 男人

為甚麼女人總愛自欺欺人

為甚麼女人總愛把自己的愛寄託他人

為甚麼女人總希望完美

為甚麼女人總看得太透

為甚麼女人的細心有時用錯地方

為甚麼男人總是看不透女人心

為甚麼男人得到了就不會珍惜

為甚麼男人總是愛表面不愛內心

為甚麼男人那麼膚淺

為甚麼男人總要女人擔心

給了太多總希望得到更多

愛得太多要求更多

擁有不等於佔有

得到了不等於滿足

有了身體心不屬於你的也沒用

難以預料

為何去煩惱

看開換來開心

等待換來擁抱

愛情換來永恆

愛情能帶給你什麼??

愛情真的那麼重要嗎??

愛情對你來說是什麼??

伴侶

情感

玩意

擁有

還是什麼??

有那麼重要嗎??

In this early year

i start to feel myself getting older and older

i saw all the youngster beside me

was like enjoy their own life

and happy

when i was collegue i also like that

feel old man....

i gonna take care my own body well

although i have a mature face

[said by many ppl...they said i looks like 26years old]

wtf!!!

i am not i am just 22 years old be4 my birthday

haiz....i know i looks old

but someone told me....diff things

i like what he said...

you want mature or childish??

i really prefer mature....

coz i can think something better then the oldest

i prefer this....i like that way...

but i told them

when i was 40years old...

but i still looks like 26 yrs old

that's a great time....will that??

i must keep....!!!

gambateh...!!!

keep my body shape also....

keep my looking...!!!

今天是我農曆生日
也沒什麼特別的
通常農曆也沒人在理吧
只是覺得
農曆感覺還不錯喔

感覺今天上班
好像沒帶腦
整個人超空的
怎麼辦...??

Jan of 2011

Start from today...my house going to be more and more silent...gosh...!!! coz my sis go in to national service today. And my bro stay at hostel few weeks come back once.........now left my parents and me...and i am a bad girl seldom at home..woots** woots** what should mum cook...just left 3 of us....hard to cook also...mayb have to start day of "tabao" already....... :(

This month kind of busy for me...i gonna done some of my own job before chinese new year. I hope to get my iphone as soon as possible.....oh ya....joyce darling coming back soon...16th jan...can we go club?? i miss club...i think almost 2 months i never officially go club...but why officially...hahaha....last month i went club cause alex's fashion show....that's not count it....coz is an event...wahhahaa...i miss club....

I guess this new year i sure will be more and more busy....and my panda eye will come again...my eye will getting smaller and smaller....oh no........i dont want ahhhh...!!! help me...!!! but compare what i did in 2010...i really improve a lot in my 3d...really happy when i saw the improvement...i wish can getting better and better....wuhoo~~!!!

Any plan for chinese new year...??

pass 2010...

welcome 2010...

Time pass very fast....1st day of 2011...what you do in the 1st day?? I am at home....but last few days having great fun days with all my friendsss...they are so best ever :)...love you all....oxox....muackz.... fun time always pass fast then normal. Tomorrow have to start work...................kind of lazy after few days rest...hard to bring back my playful heart to working heart...Very fast.... my birthday is coming soonn....this year i dont have much expect to my birthday....i just hope all my works goes smooth and dont bring much trouble for me is good enough....i wont mind dont have any suprising and present...at list i am happy everyday :) feb is going to chinese new year.........did you all start prepare chinese new year and buy new clothes...the worst things i ever had is............this year i not yet get prepare to welcome chinese new year....why so fast geeting older....i hope my time stop at the moment when i was young.......:(