love is...

love is not what you give to some one...
you will get back 100%...
althought sometime 1% also hard to take back...
thats why...
love is no weight...
can't measure...can't count...
sometime you need...that kind of things...
but your patner can't give you...
because everyone have different characteristic...
what we can do is...
juz do your best...
make you love great and unforgetable...
and meaningful...
make it wonderful...non can be prefect lover...
make it in your mind forever...
that is you memory...
i love all my memory...
because memory is can't back or forward forever...
sometime we no need look at the back...
juz walk staright...
that also a great idea...
beacuse you no need worry anything...
just waiting the next surprise in front of you...
don't make yourself stress...


all this things talk is easy...
not everythings we can done...
all we can't done all...
just talk...and try to use and exprience it...

person who no more confidence...izit still can alive?

people who no more confidence...
izit still can alive?
she already feel dissappionted to this world and everythings...
she already no hope...
she already do what she can do...
but no use...
she already feel herself useless in this crazy world...
she feel endless...
she feel everythings she did all lose...
she lost everythings she need...
she lost herself in her life...
she already lost...
she feeling dieing...
what does she do?
did she still can alive...
she feel everythings stupid...
because what she did...already useless...
no one care her...
no one know her...
no one love her...
all hate her...
all feel she noisy and hatefullness...
she dunno how to help herself in her life...
she already give up...
give up evrythings...
she feel this world are dark...


FOR ME...she still alive...
she feel dark...but have 1 candle in front of her...
the candle can show the way from hell to heaven...
just see she want to choose or not...
because the way is difficultive...
is a lot of torn...and poison snake...
if she brave...she can pass this hell to heaven...
she is a superwomen that we can see at the future...
this is a story of become a great superwomen...


this story is a real story...
juz the person who step before this way only can know the tones and sadness...

did love fragile?

this few day...i saw my friend msn keep on mantion love is fragile is silly word...
why love fragile?
did love fragile?
did u try to improve your love before?
did you care you love?
did you let it go?
did you remember what you did?
did you remember what you tell?
did you remember what you need?
did you remember what is love?
did you tolarence?
did you believe him/her?
did you having him/her?
did you still love him/her?
did you know what is fragile?
did you dream of him/her before?
did you feel him/her important for you?
did him/her important?
did you important?
did you cant forget him/her?
did you need him/her?
what is important?
him/her is in what level in your jelly heart?

try to ask yourself...
did you ask?
did you think?
please remember...
no one prefect...
sometime you cant live without something...
please remind yourself...
ask yourself did you love him/her?
before you do anythings...or say anything hurt people...

choose of life...

in the life...have many things we should choose...
should choose a right lover...
should choose a good job...
should choose a good and wonderful life...
should choose a great boss...
should choose a best time to talk...
should choose a best husband...that is different to lover...husband need to choose more detail than lover...husband is for whole life...
should choose a great car...
should choose a great food...
should choose a nice dress, clothes, pants...etc...
should choose a great style that suit you...
must have all the best in our life...
but which is the prefect for your whole life...
no one prefect...
so whatever also will have some bad in our life...
we just need to choose...not the best just the better or good...

believe and having...

believe and having...
is a huge study in loving journey...
when u having...u should believe it...
but when you believe it...
you will think to much to cover somethings...
thats a hard things in my life...
i try to let you free let you go...
hope you will appreciate what i do for you...
although you didn't do any wrong...
i will cover for you...
as long i love you...
i'm stupid...i can't said is not true...
hope you know what i do what i think...
that's most important...
you know you are important...
please don't ask me...
i will always on your way on your step...
try to close to you...
hope you really appreciate...
i hope i can walk this long journey with you until i die...
but many things is in front of us...
we can't imagine what the big deal in there...
but just appreciate now...
i love you...dear...

i not a good gf...

i not a good girlfriend...
i dunno how 2 tolerance...
i dunno how 2 care ppl...
i dunno how 2 conversation...
make u nth 2 talk 2 me...
i'm a noisy person..make u headache...
i feel i'm a loser in love...
i dunno how 2 make myself better...
i dunno how 2 be a good and prefect girlfriend...
i juz know i'm bad girlfriend...
T.T
T.T
T.T

sad and moody day...T.T

feeling like crying...
i cant cry out...
if i cry out ppl will noe...
so i feeling my heart is droping tears...
i feel sufer...
hiaz...
no ppl noe me...
i tell the reason...no ppl will care me...
i nid ur care...
but u take it normal and no respon...
did u love me and care me?
yesterday until now i cant feel ur care...
i very miss u...
i nid ur care...
did u noe?
hiaz...
pls have sum attention on me...pls...
if u keep on like tat...
u will make me sad and dunno how...
i feeling careless...
hiaz...
i already cry 4 few day...
but u dunno...
i sms u...
u no reply...
u always treat fren important then me...
if like tat...i dun mind juz b ur fren...
did u noe?
did u noe?
can u dun make me sad?
i dun 1 sad...
i nid u...
gimme a lovely huge...
can u?

i hate ktm...

every time i take ktm...
ktm sure broke down...
hiaz...
i already night mare ktm...
2day in ktm...
i old color wolf keep on follow me...
and squeze me at the corner...
i very scare...
i dunno nid how?
i juz noe i very very scare...
no ppl can help me...
in my mind i juz think of u...
but u wont noe...
i tell u...u cant do anythings...
so i choose dun tell u...
i very scare...

lonelyness...

y ppl couple so happi...
i wif u 3 yrs d...
now more long i feel more lonely...
y shud we couple?
v couple i also lonely at home?
u go out happi...
i at home boring...lonely...
hiaz...
did u think wat i feel...

pity...

i feel stress...
family stress...
assignment stress...
result stress...
money stress...
time stress...
many many stress...
i feel i cant stay d...
i going 2 die...

now...stress...

START FROM TIS SEM I FEEL STRESSFUL...
coz next term is my in-tern...
after in-tern is my final project...
i feel 1 day stress then 1 day...
i very worry my result and my future...
tis year i smy final year...
i feel stress then my spm exam...
argh...!!!!
i feel i going crazy...
i feel the time is limited for me...
i feel my breathe also fast...
everythings is fast...
i scare...i worry...
i need good result from this term...
i give my own stress...
i hope i can did it...
just do it...
last week...ms suzi call us choose our best work put in portfoilio...
i feel all my works are weird and bad...
dunno how 2 show in portfolio...
i feel shame...
hiaz...
i worry in-tern...
i need a brave heart...
i feel i like 2 call ppl help me or teman me...
i cant individual...
cant take care myself better...
how 2 improve my disadvantages...
hiaz...

miss you ah..

very miss you ah...
i juz saw u a while onli is not enuf lo...
did u feel it enuf?
2day i juz see u...
but i feel the distance...
y u din hold my hand?
i tot u will hold my hand de...
hiaz...
u juz stand far away...
hiaz...
u make me so sad lo...
i trying 2 talk wif u...
u juz smile at there...
u din talk wif me 2...
juz feel like i'm sorh poh...
hiaz...
i very miss you...
did you noe?
hiaz...
u always feel me like play play...
hiaz...
actly i reli very miss you...
i juz din said out...
when i said out...
u feel i'm play...
hiaz...
everyday i also miss you...
every moment also miss you...
i nid you 2 care me...