i am so envy my classmates can go oversea study
i hope i can................
but.........
currently....is not the time....
i know time by time....pass
i will getting older....
haiz.....
but i still hope i can get my degree....
but.......currently i cant see any hope ......
from my parents.....
what to do????
i really feel like study oversea man.....
i saw my friends....
have a new life at uk and australia
i am so so so so so so envy.....
i wish i can go with them.....
but someone and something spoil my wish....
T.T..''
i really hope i can get my degree.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who can sponsor me.....
or help me?????????????
[haha....]
no one.........._____________________________lll

lonely weekend

no need to said
why the past weekend i so lonely gua????
mr. lau working lo....
haiz....
no money then work harder lo....haha^^

i boring at home like mad
nothing to do......
open laptop play facebook
play until sien d....
then do my office work....
haiz....
what life is that....???
no fun at all........
going boring until die d......
wait mr. lau come back already 8.30pm

i dun like my last weekend....
make me mad at home....

but mostly weekend....
what you all will do????
anyone can answer me??
any interresting weekend can share with me.....

解闷解烦恼解压力

做人真嘅好矛盾
俗语有话: 人生有几多个十年
人生就一定係有起起跌跌嘅...
没跌过边知痛咧...
只係睇你哋如何解决著...

睇见我身边嘅每个人
承受嘅...担心嘅
我真嘅冇能为力帮到
只会感觉到压力
我都有我自己嘅烦恼
真所谓: 家家有本难念的经

如何让自己係唔开心当中
搵到属于自己嘅欢乐
呢个先係最重要嘅
如果一直印住
只会令你lum埋一边
咁何谓咧?

我经过嘅係唔多
不过亦都唔少
唔好呃阿姐见识少啊...

乜嘢都好啦...
自己开心最重要
人係自私嘅
冇人係大方同伟大嘅
难道佢有金拾会叫埋你咯...
慢慢等啦...

我已经尽量睇透同睇开滴啦...
虽然改变唔到乜嘢...
我喜欢就得啦...哈哈...

哈哈...今日好多废话
好多嘢lum唔通
好辛苦啊...
头快爆啦...

surprises all around me~....
am i lucky or bad luck???
happen many things round and round...
some hard to face
some is surprise secret...
i am like a surprise and secret box
we cant imagine or guess what happen inside
just when the things happen we only know...
[when the boat reach the bridge only we know the future]
dunno bad or good....
someone said you never try never know....
for me.....
some is cant try.....
may be i not dare to try...
may be i scare to try...
can said i am timid....

wah....in this year....
many people get married around me
friends....cousins..................
if i seriously count...
until this end of year...
may be will be 8 wedding i need to attend....
erm...
so many....T.T
all is red boom.... :P

this sat is joyce darling 21st birthday leh....
and tat day also my cousin wedding....
may be both also i will attend...
darling....i will try my best to attend ur birthday par....ok???
no worry...
i am happy also...cause mf mama will attend joyce darling birthday too~~
long time no see her....
cant wait to meet her also....hehe^^
mf ....you must take care ya...
sure your little pretty same as you...
pretty**
hehe^^
this week is full of schedule....

4 days holidays....!!!???

what to do!!!????
erm.....
eyey...............

saturday...19 sept 09...[rain]
wake up on 9am+
help my mum dye hair
and have my brunch at the afternoon
the half day like shit.....
nth to do........
play facebook until night
11pm+
go genting with mr. lau freindsssss..........


sunday...20 sept 09...[windy]
12am+ reach genting
less people
check-in hotel
then sit at starbuck
have my chocolate chips frapucinno
until 2am+
waoh.....................
Lamborghini team reach....
cool man....
all the people there look at them without click eye...
3am+ go back hotel watch stupid tv and sleep
the weather cool like shit....
8am+ woke up
stand beside the window and look out
the people at there like mountain and ants....
so many people at there....
soooooooooooooooooo
i go back sleep again
coz no chance to enter theme park already
although i enter also cant play
no choice....back to sleep
until 11am+
take my bath
and watch cartoon in the hotel
wait them wake up and take bath
already 1pm
go out have our brunch
walk to first world indoor
all the hman like ants
walk also need to push
haiz....
i wondering all the people still can take photo
haiz.....
all the restaurant also full of people
no choice
have to eat fast food again
PIZZA....
after ate the brunch walk around
3pm+ go back to k.l.
after that we go pavillion
actually we have to meet our friends at there
but.....they give us aeroplane..........................................
when we reach pavillion car park
they call and said change location to cheras old town....
after old town we go leisure mall fetch our friends
the first time i go leisure mall
erm....no feelllllllll
then we have our dinner at sri kembangan
after dinner
we go second round at dataran prima, pj [original kayu]
today are very tired
reach home 1am+ i slept already

monday...21 sept 09...[cloudy]
when i woke up already 10am+
mr. lau's mum already cook us breakfast
after breakfast...
his friendsss call again
ask us go PAVILLION....
AGAIN..........................!!!!!
after pavillion we walk to sg. wang
after sg. wang already 6pm+
we need to rush back rawang
coz we have to dinner with mr. lau's family
after dinner 10pm
we go back pj 记得吃 eat desert with mr. lau's friendsss
after desert
we go 1U neway sing k
ntil 4am+ in the morning

tuesday...22 sept 09...[sunny]
5am+ reach home
slept....~
woke up at 12 pm
today is mr. lau's nephew birthday
in the evening we go 1U with his family
at night we go kota damansara yumcha
12am+ go home..........
sleep on 2am+
tired.....................................

today i feel sleepy........Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz~~~~~
my holidaysss..........................

冰冷

今天的空气好冰冷哦...

看着他对我的不耐烦

看着他对我的不理不睬

感觉好寂寞

他已经累了

可是他

仍然坐着那儿

等待她的信息和电话

看了好心疼

可是我不能表露我的心疼

我只能坐在一旁

听我的歌

玩我的电脑

他也没理会我

也没发觉我的存在

好没存在感

好难过

他烦恼她要走了

他烦恼她会不会忘记他

他担心她

他爱护她

这我一切都放在眼里

只是他没发现

这几天的我

回到家

都好没胃口

都少吃了

他没发现

因为我在他世界里

变成了"烦"

这个字熟悉的

这是他常形容我的

低落的心情

感觉好无奈

做什么都好不对劲的

好不舒服哦...

他越是躲避

我越想知道

他们隐藏着什么

可能不是我想象的

只是不想再被骗

被骗的感觉不好受

我不知道他们要怎样???

不想猜测

也无法猜测

让他去吧..........................................

emo feel

quite sometime i abandon my blog
happen many sad things in this few time
feel desperation in my life
bad working life i have been
relationship is ..........

To you:

我能不吃醋吗？

我没她好[难听的]

试问你给他的

我都难过

因为我都得不到

得不到你给于他的好

好难过

埋藏在心里的痛

不能发泄

好伤心

不能告诉任何人

哭

也只能偷哭

告诉也只能告诉自己

安慰也能自我安慰

还是哭了

心里的难过和痛

没人能体会

没人能谅解

你懂吗?

肚子很痛

可是

你在和她

聊得又说有笑

我不敢打扰

只能一个人窝在墙角

哭

你给她的关心

永远那么多

我能不嫉妒吗?

请你想想...

emo-ing

心情嘅低落
冇发发泄
只能自我安慰
听歌安抚自己
生活嘅不满
感情嘅矛盾
工作嘅烦恼
金钱嘅缺少
又遇到一班白痴+唔能+冇脑+贱格+狗
真係怒到上顶
火都来
nia XXXXXXXXXXX

等天收你地啦
贱人肥猪肉
肥狮子
菜狗fong
同麦班冇脑
真係奸人一堆堆
物以类聚
成班屎

你地滴后代慢慢受啦
害人害己
唔会好过嘎
大家放长双眼看啦

心

好多事情
真嘅唔係一五一十可以讲
往往到佐
先回感觉到
你唔需要觉得过意不去
你咁做令我好唔好过
我知你一直在补偿
但是唔係咁咔
个种心情就似
拿个石头加lemon打入我的心
这种感觉係好难了解亦都好难受咔
冇相干...
我可以handle到
过佐前晚
流泪整晚没睡
肿发佐个噩梦
我唔会再为佐呢件事咳你面前流泪
我昨晚不停安慰自己
唔胚自己流泪
虽然辛苦
唯有係咁
先唔会令你难做
希望你了解

我爱你~♥