tired ah...

argh....
i very tired ah...
yesterday o clubbing at cocobanana...
reach home 4 sumthing d...
take a rest then sleep...
wake up 7 a.m...


my work like cant finish...
my 3d rendering nid half day 2 render...
make me crazy...
not enough time 2 do...
after sent my 3d to singapore for my senior...
then continue sent the site pictures...
coz of the site pictures 2 big...so nid send 1 by 1...
hiaz...
crazy...
sent until now still sending...4.21 pm d...how?
i very tired ah...
havent rest yet...

early morning crying in the car...

early morning...i driving 2 office with the crying mood...
i cant stop my tears...
the tears like the rain...
my tears is go by whether...
i hate ppl lie on me...i hate u...i hate u...
anything u also dun 1 tell me...
juz make me sad...
u asked me why i sad...izit u shud ask urself wat u did...
my feeling is weird...
wat shud i do...
the feeling is fate soon...
2day mood is bad...
bad bad...
no mood 2 work...juz feel like crying...
where is my happy mood...
i lost it...
who can make me laugh...
what shud i do...???
moody...!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u wont tell me the true...i noe...

S.A.T.U.R.D.A.Y.

early morning wake up...
go working lo...
stomachache ah....
pain pain de...
2day very auntie...
coz scare heavy rain cant go home...
so i bring umbrella...
like auntie...no choice...
hehe^^...auntie look de shirley...imagine~~
no mood 2 work oo....
who can help me...
help me ah!!!!!
a bit flu d...
sore throat...
caugh...
all my enermy is here...doctor is waiting me at the clinic d...
scare~~~~
T.T...

两人之间。。。

两人之间到底隐藏着什么？
能告诉对方吗？
吵架是为了什么？
分手是为了什么？
在一起还要给空间对方寻找更好的吗？
到底你能拥有对方什么？
能拥有多少？
能持久吗？
你能在对方的心里占多少？
又比其他来的重要吗？
是考中。。。

心情差

仿佛今天的天气就是灰色的。。。
心情真差劲。。。
不知为什么。。。把昨晚的心情带来今天。。。
不懂彼此在想什么的我。。。在干吗？
拥有真的需要怎么难过吗？
我就开始问自己。。。没了会好过吗？
又开始乱想了。。。




请问。。。你知道我的难过吗？
你会体谅我吗？
你又站在我这边想过吗？
是多么的难受的。。。
痛苦已变麻木。。。
不在有感觉得我。。。
在乱想的我。。。
很想一切一切变回原来的模样。。。
嗨。。。救救我！！！！

why so complicated?...

everythings was ike very complicated....
relationship...job...family...ur lover...etc.
many many things else...
juz try 2 not 2 think...
try not 2 not 2 think is hard 2 every one...
juz try think in positive ways...
tat will be better and better...
"talk is easy then do...i noe~"

i'm starting 2 worried...
worried wat?""i aslo dunno"
worried 2 much things...make myself no confidence...
"i lost my confidence'
how 2 bring back my confidence who can tell me...
i wan 2 noe...
sometime feel lost my way...
dunno where 2 go...
i juz try 2 go back 2 the began...
try 2 be myself...
alwasy try and try...
i also tell myself i will change i will change...
but i really haev change...
juz when i change...
many things happen...many things nid 2 change 2...









TO YOU:
can i ask u somethings???
-did u appreciate me?
-did u appreciate our relationship?
-did u rmb wat tell me?
"u said u will tell me everything"
"but u din do tat"
"make me sad...and disappionted"
- am i important????
T.T
"LAST NITE...u dun 1 chat wif me in the phone...i was thinking...did u sms-ing wif her...tats y u dun chat wif me...coz u seldom do tat...u always chat wif me at list 30 min...but...last nite...5 min onli...u call me 2 close the phone...then i ask u why....u juz tell me...i dun 1 talk 2 much...and feel me farn...and dun 1 argue...wat happen? i also talk nth...tats y u make me think nonsence on u...u also like tat...sumtime i noe u wont tell me...so i go ask u...but u feel me farn...coz when i ask u... u onli will tell...if i no ask...i dunno anything...u noe...??"
"HOPE U NOE WAT I'M THINKING"

36 days...more

wah....36 days more to go...
the time pass so so so so fast...
my intern juz left 36 days...
erm...until now learn a lot of things...
example how 2 talk wif some one nonsence....
how to treat some one unuseful in office...
"but also learn many format of auto cad and 3d max laa..."
hehe^^
until now can feel tat...
id have many ways 2 live...
hehe^^
not bad...

very funny...
last saturday my boyfriend's mum...
juz noe i'm study id and now is intern...
she like very surprise...
izit i'm not look like a interior designer...
wat i'm look like?????
"erm...let me think think"
"tis is a great question"

i wan 2 do part time ah....
not enuf money 2 use...
who can gimme job...
where can i find the part time job...
any one need me 2 help them design...
pls call me...or send me a comment...
i need work...
pls gimme a great part time job...
i need money 2 live...
keke^^

sit in the office until my back pain...
life so sadness...
life so boring...
need some surprise...
who can gimme surprise...
pls...

伤痛

伤痛的感觉。。。
很难受。。。
苦不出来的痛。。。才叫痛。。。
痛得没感觉。。。
痛得想发泄。。。
（不知如何发泄）
眼泪在眼眶晃了一整夜。。。
没人能述说。。。
没人理解的感觉。。。
不好过。。。
没人给的安慰。。。
也没人理会。。。
想要个人来拥抱。。。
（不可能）
等人来疼爱。。。
步入想个办法来安慰自己。。。
讨好自己。。。
给自己更快乐。。。
为什么没人理解我的感受。。。
很难过。。。

feel-less...

Feel-less...
feel nth...
wat am i doing now?
waiting wat...
need wat...
thinking wat?
keep on asking myself...
feeling lifeless...
feeling sad...
moody...
the world look grey...
no sun...
where is the sunny day...
where is the crazy shirley...
look lik elong time no laugh crazy d...
sumthing in my mind hold for quite long time...
cant take it out...
cant stop thinking...
wats wrong wif me...
i try 2 tell out wat i'm thinking...
juz make me more confuse and confuse...
going crazy...
stay at the lonely nite...
waiting sumone talk wif me....
tat feel is bad...
feel lonely and lifeless...